Chasing The Impractical (Brian Quinn Story)

Good - Apollonia

The morning after my dinner with Miguel had started with an hour of the worst morning sickness imaginable. After finally pulling myself together, I had a quick shower and decided to call Q.

"Yeah" he snapped as soon as he picked up.

"Good morning to you as well" I scoffed.

"How was last night?"

"Okay. Worst morning sickness ever though today... so, you wanna talk about last night? What you said?"

"What do you want me to say Apps?" He groaned.

"That you're sorry maybe?" I snapped.

"Fine, if it's make YOU feel better. I'm sorry"

"Oh fuck you. If you're not ready to deal with this like adults then I'm going. You can call me when you ready to talk properly".

I quickly hung up and and flung my phone across the bedroom. I had another long day of stupid meetings ahead of me, I needed to get my head back in the game or I was going to end up completely sinking.

Over the next two weeks my time was sent with work and then arguing with Q over the phone into the early hours of the morning. Miguel had left LA a few days after our dinner and I slowly becoming more and more overwhelmed by everything.

After the worst two weeks of my life in recent years, I was finally back in New York. Despite all the arguing Q and I had done whilst I was away, he was still there with Bella at the airport to pick me up.

Bella had given me a huge hug when I first arrived at the airport and Q had gently kissed me before grabbing my bags and leading us to the car. The drove home was done in almost silence, and when we finally arrived back home, Bella left to go hang out with friends who lived a few houses down the street.

"So, you wanna start screaming at each other now or shall I go unpack first" I sighed when we were finally alone.

"I don't want to argue any more Apps. I can't. I'm sorry okay, I'm sorry I'm not being what you need right now. I'm just struggling to process it all and I'm worried"

"Yeah, well so am I Q. I'm fucking terrified. I don't want you to be anything, I just need you to be there for me... I just need to know I still have your love".

"You'll always have that" he shot back.

I know he believed what he was saying, I wished I could too. I still loved him more than anything, but the he had behaved over the past two weeks had cut deeper than I could ever imagine.

"I'm suppose to be on tour in the Midwest for the next 10 days. You want me to cancel?" He asked now.

"No, you've gotta go on tour. I'll be okay, it's just 10 days right" I shrugged and flopped down into the sofa.

Cautiously, Q sat down next to me and turned his body towards me. Placing his finger under my chin, he gently turned my face to his.

"I miss kissing you, I miss us" he whispered.

"I haven't gone anywhere. Im scared you have though" I sighed.

Brian looked as though he was about to lean in and kiss me when Bella came flying into the room crying.

"Jesus" I groaned and closer my eyes

"I'll deal with it" Q sighed.

Bella had fallen off her bike and cut her leg badly. In the end we ended up having to take to to the hospital to get a couple of stitches. Q and I never did kiss that day.

The next day, once Bella had left for school, a car arrived to take Q to the airport.

"I'll call you" he smiled and gently placed his hands on my tiny bump for the first time ever.