strawberries & cigarettes || YOONMIN ✔ wattys2019

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"Yoongi, let me down. I'm too heavy." Jimin whines as yoongi continues to carry jimin, holding him as close as he could, walking like jimin is the lightest and most fragile thing in the world.

Sure, after a while, yoongi got tired because he was walking all the way home on his feet but it didn't matter at all. He felt like he deserved every single bit of the pain he was feeling in his arms and back. After all, he had caused jimin pain too ,and he knew it was the kind of pain you cannot forget that easily even if jimin pretend it didn't hurt him as much as it actually did.

"No, jimin. We're almost home." Yoongi replied and jimin sighed. It was when he felt the cold breeze on his legs, when he realized he was only in his boxers and he thanked God that the streets in this neighborhood were empty.

"Yoongi, please hurry. I have no pants on", jimin hid his face embarrassed in yoongis chest. The strong scent of cigarettes filling his nose.

"Jimin, I'm as embarrassed as you are so please just hold on. We're almost there. Okay?" Yoongi said as he quickened his pace, not getting any response from the younger.

"Jimin, did what I just said upset you? I'm sorry- I really didn't mean it like that. I can take my pants of too if you want me to."yoongi spoke, meaning every word.

"You wouldn't " jimin rolled his eyes.

"Oh, I would. Trust me. There's nothing I wouldn't do for you."

"Nothing?",jimin asked.

"Nothing." Yoongi promised.

"Write me a song then", jimin hummed.

"I already did",yoongi said and jimin couldn't believe what he just heard. Never in his life had he thought yoongi would write a song for him.

"Why haven't you told me before?" Jimin asked with a high pitched voice, his eyes lingering on yoongis lips as he spoke with a sad look on his face" it's on the cassette I told you to look for... before.. before things happened."

Jimin nodded his head, avoiding the topic completely. A couple minutes later they reached yoongis house .Yoongi entered and carefully placed jimin on the couch. He kissed the top of jimins head ,"I'm so sorry ,jimin."

Yoongi picked some clothes for jimin and placed them on the couch. After that he went to fill the bathtub with warm water, took a fresh towel and helped jimin to stand up, leading him to the bathroom.

"Let's clean you up, okay baby?" Yoongi said and put his fingers on the waistband of jimins boxers, waiting for the youngers approval. When jimin finally nodded his head, yoongi carefully slid down jimins boxers and helped him get into the bathtub. Jimin sat in the water all embarrassed," yoongi, I can take a bath by myself. Really."

"I know ,jimin" yoongi sighed as he looked down on the ground "I know, I just want to make it good even though I know it's impossible. I want to show you how much I care and I never want to let you go."

Yoongis hand wandered to jimins and he held it , rubbing his thumb over it circle motions. Jimin leaned his head back, turning his gaze to yoongi, when their eyes met. Yoongis heart stopped beating for a split second. He found himself searching in jimins eyes for answers. He just wanted to know jimin still loved him like he used to do.

"Yoongi?"

"Hmm?"

"Is it true that you were homeless?" Jimins eyes teared up.

"Oh" yoongi gasped, guessing that they told jimin everything "yeah, it's true. But that was a long time ago. So, don't worry."

"D-did you have a hard time?" Jimins lips trembled.

"I had a hard life", yoongi said and then shook his head, "but why are you asking now? I don't want you to cry. Everything is over and now that I'm with you, I'm the happiest I could've ever been."

Jimin bit his bottom lip and yoongi did not really understand what emotions were going through jimins mind.

"D-did you tell them it was okay to kidnap m-me?"

"W-what?"yoongi questioned,"No. Oh, baby. How could you think that? Is that what they told you?"

Jimin sniffed, nodding his head.

"Oh, jimin. I promise you I never said that. I would never want anyone to hurt you. I know I promised myself I wouldn't let anyone hurt you.. and I'll never forgive myself. Please, believe me. I would never let anybody do that to you. I never said that. You fucking mean the world to me",yoongi cried, his voice cracking as he said the last sentence.

"I- I know" jimin replied, reaching out his tiny hand to wipe yoongis tears that were falling into his bath water.

Yoongi began to clean jimin, shampooing his body and washing his hair. After he was done, he grabbed the towel, rubbing jimins head playfully.

He helped jimin put on his clothes and lead him back to the couch where he covered his legs with a blanket. Then, he went to make some eggs for jimin and some tea.

"Here, baby"

"Oh, thanks. I've been starving."

"What? They didn't give you anything to eat?" Yoongi looked surprised.

"Of course not. They didn't even let me use the bathroom as you sure noticed. I felt so gross. I thought you'd hate me." Jimin mumbled the last part.

"How could you think that? I'd never hate you. Even if you didn't shower for 5 month or a year I'd still love you the same. Actually, you're the only one allowed to hate here. And I give you permission to hate me because I deserve it." Yoongi said.

"Anyway ,what day is it today?" Jimin suddenly asked.

"Saturday, why?"

"Saturday? You promised me to visit my parents with me on the weekend. Can we go now?"

"I've been wanting to do that anyway but are you sure? You look so tired?"

"I promise ,I'm alright. You've been wanting to go today?"

"I have to, we need to go somewhere, jimin", yoongis eyes watered.

"What? What do you mean?"

"Jimin, this house no longer belongs to me. We have to leave tonight anyway. It's not safe here anyway. Now grab your things and let's-"

"You sold your car and your.. House?!"