strawberries & cigarettes || YOONMIN ✔ wattys2019

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"Huh?" Jimin got up and reached for the basket yoongi handed him.

"Do you have a secret lover? Hmm?", yoongi jokes trying to get his boy into a better mood. At the same time he feels kind of jealous but he would do everything to make jimin happy.

Jimin stares at the snacks for a while and sighs. He noticed the letter and held it tightly between his tiny fingers. Those were the snacks he picked today at the store and left behind. He knew exactly who this basket was from.

"Why do you look so upset, jiminie? This better not be from Eric?" yoongi asks as he noticed jimin go completely silent and upset.

"It's not, yoongi." Jimin quietly says.

"Who is it from? Open it already!" Yoongi lost his patience.

"From my father."

"What?" Yoongi is confused."How do you know? You haven't even opened it yet."

"I met him today when I went to buy some snacks for us, so we could have a movie night. He said hey and I just left. It was just too much, yoongi. If he said one more thing I would've broken down. It still hurts me so bad". Jimin clenched his fist and placed his on his chest.

"I know, baby. I know", yoongi sat down next to Jimin, placing his arm on his shoulder,"it's okay to feel broken. And it's okay to walk away from things that hurt you. It takes time to heal, jiminie. But sometimes you have to let your feelings be. Because you have them for a reason. You shouldn't avoid them. You should feel them."

"Should I open it?" Jimin sniffed and yoongi nodded in response.

Jimin grabbed the letter with shaky hands. He unfolded it and licked his lip," to my lovely son", he reads out loud before his vision gets blurry from the tears that form up in his eyes.

"Do you want me to read it to you?" yoongi asks as he notices the younger struggling with the water rolling down his cheeks. Jimin nodes and sniffed again, holding tight onto yoongi.

"Okay, I will start again." Yoongi clears his throat," To my lovely son. Jimin. I know that words won't make this any better and I know that any gift in the world couldn't make you forgive me. And I'm not asking you to. I just want you to know that I'm sorry. Genuinely sorry. All these years I made you feel like you failed as a son, when it was me who failed as a father. I wanted you to be who I wanted you to be. I wanted you to be what society wanted you to be. I never asked you what you wanted to be. Who you wanted to be. How you wanted to dress. Who you wanted to love. I was too focused on making you the perfect son I wasn't. When it wasn't my place to do so. You are the only one to choose who you want to be. When I saw you today, with your blond hair I asked myself where the pink went. The pink you wore so much despite everything people said. Despite what I said. Today I felt like that part of you was missing. And I didn't want to be the reason you loose another part again. I don't want you to loose yourself because of people. I know where I went wrong. I should've supported you. I should've been proud of you. But instead I kicked you out of your own house.. For thinking you were wrong when you were just being yourself. I don't want you to forgive me jimin. I just want you to know that I'm sorry. I won't be part of your life anymore. Me and your mother don't get along and I found a new family that I feel happy with. My new wife has a daughter and she likes girls. And I promised I won't do the same mistake again. I will be there for her.

If you ever need me. Remember I'm there for you.
Sincerely,
Dad