Lauren Cimorelli (one shots) ❤️

Pain {Laurisa}

Lauren's POV:

I stare in the mirror. All I can see is a big blob. That big blob is me.

I sigh and look down, am I really that fat? I turn sideways and look. I guess I am.

Why can't I be skinny like Dani? Or be beautiful like Lisa? Or smart like Christina?

Why did you eat so many chips at lunch Lauren? I ask myself. Why do you eat so so so much?

I decide what I'm going to do. I can't look like this anymore or I'll start getting called the ugly duckling. I'm not going to eat for the rest of the day.

Lisa's POV:

"Guys, dinner!" I scream up at the stairs and soon four of them come running down. I look around and don't see Lauren. I shrug it off, thinking she heard me and was just busy and coming now.

Lauren comes in and sits down. We say our prayers and start to eat. I look next to me, Lauren who hasn't touched a thing on her plate. I lean over to her and whisper in her ear,

"Laur, why aren't you eating?" I ask her.

"Oh. Just full," She seemed a bit surprised that I asked her but I simply nodded, believing her.

The rest of dinner flew by, all of us making conversation except Lauren. I started to worry a little bit, she's not normally this quiet and she never doesn't eat her dinner.

After dinner I started to make my way to bed when I walked in to my shared room with Lauren. Lauren was standing towards the mirror, staring at herself. I raised an eyebrow in confusion but before I could say anything she left the room.

"Lauren?" I called out to her watching as she walked down the hallway. She didn't respond but kept on walking. I sighed and went back into my room.

Weeks went by and I could see Lauren was getting thinner by the second. She would eat her dinner and breakfast with us but would go to the bathroom straight afterwards. I knew what she was doing, I couldn't help but blame myself for not reaching out to her when I first noticed something was off with her. I've tried talking to her multiple times but she shuts me out. I don't know why she's doing this to herself, she's literally so perfect and my heart breaks whenever I see her pale and tired face walk into a room.

Someone vomiting pulls me out of my thoughts and I look around and see Lauren lying on the bathroom floor in our room, resting her hands on the toilet. I don't think she knows I'm here. The door is slightly opened so I can see her pale body lunge forward. I see her hands go up to her throat and before I can stop myself I run in there and pull her fingers away.

Lauren jumps in fright when she sees me but then her face is placed with anger.

"Lauren? What are you doing?" I ask her carefully, she knows I know what she was doing but I don't need to push her.

"N-nothing." She replies weakly, her gaze now on the floor as I stand over her, still holding her fingers in my hand.

"Lauren," I say sternly and let go of her hand. I kneel down to her and use my fingers to bring her head towards me.

"What's going on?" I ask her and just like that her eyes fill with tears, letting a few spill.

"Oh Laur," I tell her gently and pull her body closer to me in a tight hug. I feel my shoulder get wet by her tears and I hug tighter. I let go of her fragile body to sit on the floor, I pull her into my lap, her head resting on my chest while she lies sideways.

"It's okay Ladybug," I whisper to her while slowly rocking her back and forth.

"I'm s-sorry L-Lisa, do y-you hate me?" She asks me while sniffling and my heart breaks. Why would she think I hated her?

"I could never hate you Ladybug, why would you think that?" I ask her, a little shocked at her reply. I begin to stroke her back with my one hand while my other hand is on top of hers.

She doesn't say anything but cries harder and I can feel my heart shatter at her cries. I wish I could take her pain away. She doesn't deserve to go through something like this.

"Lauren? Look at me," I say firmly and put my fingers onto her chin to meet my eyes.

"What's going on? Why did you this Laur?" I ask her again gently as my hand goes down to her back to rub it.

Lauren sighs, hesitating to tell me. She looks down at the floor and I can see more tears fall from her face.

She then speaks so quietly I could barely hear her,

"I was fat and needed to loose weight." She says bluntly and my heart shatters at her words.

"No Lauren, no," I tell her and I shake my head while bringing her eyes to look at mine again.

"You were never fat Lauren Christine and you never have been. You're a perfect size and you have a perfect body-," I begin to tell her firmly but Lauren cuts me off.

"I don't Lisa!" She says a bit angrily. I look at her sympathetically before she breaks down into my arms again. I rock her back and forth, trying to calm her down while whispering cute things in her ear.

"Lauren, believe me. You do," I whisper to her, firmness in my voice to convince her.

"Laur, you are so so beautiful and skinny. I wish I could make you see how we all see you. You're the funniest and most sarcastic person I've ever met and you have a heart of gold. Please, don't ever think that you need to do something like this again. If you have any urges, come and speak to me okay? I don't care if it's three am or two pm, I'm always here for you little one." I tell her gently while stroking her hair and playing with the ends of it. She nods her head and then places it onto my neck.

"Laur," I say, my voice getting a bit sterner and firmer. She pulls her head up to look at me,

"I'm going to be watching you like a hawk from now on, Okay? I can't see my little sister go through this much pain and do this to herself again. I'm going to be making sure you eat every meal and you're not allowed to go to the bathroom afterwards for at least an hour, Okay?" I tell her and her jaw slightly drops before she sighs and nods her head.

"I love you Laur. So much. I never want to see you put yourself through this." I tell her while pulling her closer towards me.

"Love you too Lisa." She tells me weakly. I know she's probably mad at me at what I said but she'll get over it and I hope she realises I just want what's best for her.

I place a gentle kiss on her forehead and realise she had fallen asleep in my lap. I slightly laugh and carefully stand up with her clinging onto me. I bring her to my bed and lie down next to her, sleeping beside her.

I really hope she doesn't do anything stupid like this again.