3/7/19 -
well a little update from my last last chapter, it's been a month and 2 weeks since i last talked to him. i've gotten used to it over time, i thought that if i did, things would be okay, that i've moved on. but it never got any better, it never got any easier. everytime i think about him and reminisce the times we had, it makes things a lot worst. i miss having conversations with him, i miss our conversations where we didn't give a single shit about what was going on because we knew we had each other and that was good enough. it hurts to think about it because we didn't even fight, argue nor talked about ending our friendship, it just did. things fell out of place and it collapsed on its own. somebody said that i already did all i can, and that was enough, i can't do anything more than that; but have i really? that i've done enough and just have to wait for him, that if i really mattered, he'd make a move. what if i don't want to wait? what if for the nth time i want to squeeze and force myself into someone's life? yet at the same time, i know that's not what i should do, that it's just calling for more pain for myself in the long run. honestly right now, i'd do anything to be able to talk to him again. then again, he's probably doing better off without me. i miss my best friend. i miss my homie. and i want him back, i want my homie back.. but i have no idea how to. because somehow even though i'm feeling all of this, i know that he was right about what he said. i've done enough. have i had enough though? i don't know.. sometimes i feel like i have, sometimes i don't. it's confusing and i just want to cry.
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