happenings

trying to forget

7/15/18-

i'm pretty sure most of us has experienced this painful thing called heartbreak. one or two or many of them, they still hurt. its been 4 months since the person i loved left me. we met online and no, we did not get together but our feelings for each other were stronger than ever. we were best friends with a tint of benefits. it was the perfect relationship if you ask me. the 3 months were the best until problems aroused with his mum and we weren't able to talk for almost 2 months. when he came back though, he was different. the way he talked was different, the way he acted was different, he just wasn't the same. we talked about this for a month or so, but it never got anywhere, we just ended up arguing and i crying. now that i think about it, i should have thought about the situation more deeply before but its too late now. i still miss him loads to be honest. i would re-read our conversations, both the good and the bad, reminisce the good memories we shared. we even created a book dedicated to each other for god's sake. if anybody of you have read my book '14 Days' that was for him. he posted his as well here but for his own privacy i'm keeping the title confidential. there was a time when i wanted to delete that book, i thought that if i did, i'd forget about him but reality sinks in and i know i can never forget about him. even the thought of him causes a pang in my chest. so i decided to continue writing it, hoping that one day when i read it again, it will only remind me of the good times we had. i don't know how long it will take for me to completely move on, but one thing i should take not of is, i will never forget him. he gave me the love that nobody else did, showed me how it felt like to have somebody who would be there for you no matter when and where you are. they say time heals, and its true, things get better for me every month. for anybody else out there who's in the same situation as me, trying to forget someone or something, just give it time. the journey won't be a bag full of candies though. there will be some things that will remind you of them which will hurt and i hope that the day will come when no cries will spill but only a smile on my face when i remember him.