6/1/19 -
okayy, so two chapters back, i wrote about me going out with this guy.
a little update, we've been talking everyday since then. and he's honestly been a really really great friend to me. the day when i ended that toxic friendship, he was there to comfort me. he texted me asking if i wanted to meet with him for lunch. this is just one incident. when i'm down in school or at night, one message to him and he'll be there to cheer me up.
in a span of three weeks or so, we've told each other so many stories from the past. i guess he took over the place of my past best friend? like i said, when i first met him, i felt good vibes. and this was it. we've just known each other for so long, yet he treats me as if we were friends for a long time already. he always makes sure that i'm okay and even with these small gestures, i could tell that he cares.
problem is, i don't know if i'm feeling this way just because i've been talking to him everyday and meeting him at least once a week. or because i actually do like him. but i think i do?
i honestly haven't felt this way since four years ago?
i don't know whether i should continue talking to him, i don't know if he has an idea that i'm interested in him, i don't know if he likes me too? i don't know anything lol.
sometimes he gives me cold replies but sometimes he also does things that make me think otherwise.
we've only known each other for a short while, so its hard to assume stuff and all. its also too fast to confirm what i feel for him. because i honestly don't mind just having him as a friend. he's made things being in a new school and environment much better, and if it wasn't for him, i'd still be really sad about the friendship that i ended.
writing this makes me feel like one of those primary school students who have crushes on somebody and is too scared to admit what they feel lmao
anyways, that's it for now. i don't know when i feel like updating again, but thanks for listening to me talk about my life. this platform has helped me release all sorts of emotions and although not many of you read this ( for now ), i'm thankful that i still haven't gotten any hate for being so emo in some of my entries ahaha :")
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