happenings

fitting in

06/29/19-

oh my two updates in a week, lol yeah, this week is really depressing. anyways, remember how i told y'all that im in a new school now. yep this whole chapter will be about that.

so the thing about being in a new school is that everything will be new. new school, new environment, new friends, even new things.

and many of us our first instinct will be to find a friend or a group of friends maybe, one that we really like, one that gets us and one that you would want to stick with for the rest of your school life.

but what if you haven't found this friend, or that group of friends yet?

it's been more than 2 months since i started out as a poly student, and honestly everything's been fine. im not struggling in school so much, i've adapted to things quite well and i have a great class. all of them are really nice, they don't push me away but neither do they make me feel like i fit in.

i don't know if it's a fault on my end because i take a long time to open up to people or maybe i just really don't fit in.

when i was in secondary school..being lonely, it was never a thing. i was just friends with everyone. even if i wasn't close to them, i knew that that was where i was supposed to be.

but now, i don't feel like i fit in anywhere.

actually, i don't feel like i fit in in singapore anymore. maybe it's because my family's thinking of migrating, maybe it's because i've been to a country where i felt like life would be better. i just don't know.

many of us struggle to fit in somewhere. especially if it's a new environment. we would immediately go to that one person who make us feel like we belong.

but maybe we just don't belong anywhere at all. maybe we're not meant to fit in anywhere.

maybe all we have to do is to find the right people.

or maybe it's just all me. maybe i just haven't made enough effort to open myself up to them.

it's hard to find a place or a group of friends whom make you feel like you actually belong.

but just give it time. one day, you'll find that person or place that will make you feel like you belong, be it anywhere.