Commander's LogBook: Volume II

From great to terrible..

My day was great except for the fact I'm sick. Even started off with a white mocha from Starbucks and hanging out with friends.

But goodness knowing me if I'm having a great day it just has to get worse.

😑

I'm just gonna give a little rant.

I hate Cards. Not like Birthday cards or letters. Love those. I mean credit/debit/gift cards. They always bring me trouble. I hate using them. For the love of everything good in this world I just wanna play for everything in cash. I don't care if it's .50$ or 100$ I will do whatever possible to pay for it in cash.

Why? Because I swear if I have anxiety at all it's from dealing with people that I know hate me and paying with a dang card. I get so much anxiety and stress so much. I feel so much safer and comfortable with cash. Don't even get me started on online shopping.

Literally tried to pay with a card today and I'm so frustrated because the dang transaction wouldn't go through. It's not because there wasn't any money. There freaking was and it should have went through. It's because I'm jinxed with these stupid things you swipe through a scanner. Worse invention ever. Call me old fashion but I will never like paying with a card ever.

Seeing dead bodies, talking to random strangers, competitions, test, dealing with everyday problems. I can handle. But cards. It's frustrating and stressful. So of course my blessed parents put me out of my misery and just paid for it all so I could pay them back later. Thank God.

Still absolutely ruined the great day I was having cause now I'm all stressed out.

I'm not even an introvert! I'm extroverted and this stresses me out! I'm for real going home and destressing with hot drink, book, blanket, sketchbook. Comfort.

Anyone else have things that legit give them anxiety like no other? Or is it just me?

-commander out