Turning Tables (ON-GOING)

Chapter Twenty - Nine

Avoiding

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I lost count on how many times I called Kiel. I want to know where they went and why are they together. Halos mababaliw na ako sa kakaantay rito sa loob ng sasakyan ko.

I glanced at my car's digital clock, ten o'clock. Three hours. Can't believe I waited for three freaking hours. Sana sinundan ko nalang sila. Fuck. I can't think of a right reason bakit magkasama sila. I wanted to believe if they're just doing some school activities or meetings, pero hindi 'e.

Ezekiel Conrado, you're really making me damn crazy!

"Ugh, Ellie, ano ba?" hinampas ko ang steering wheel.

"Inhale... exhale" I breathe in and breath out, trying to calm myself.

For the last time, tatawagan ko si Kiel at kapag hindi siya sasagot, 'di ko na siya hihintayin pa. I dialed his number again and waited for him to answer. I was about to end the call when I heard a lazy voice from the other line.

"Hello..."

I inhaled and sighed before closing my eyes. It was a sign of relief, but the want of yelling at him for not telling me his whereabouts o mga ginagawa niya kasama iyong pusit na 'yon, is still getting on my nerves. He should always update me!

"Saan ka?" God, hearing myself is not the Ellie that I know. Lumiit ang boses ko na para bang bumababa ang aking pride at confidence.

I heard his heavy sighed from the other line. "At home. Why?"

He lied. He... really... lied to me. After all this time, we go on dates, we shared moments together and we even kissed? Tapos, he just fucking lied to me? I can't, I just can't believe this!

Parang sinaksak ang puso ko sa narinig. I wanted to burst out into tears but I managed to act strong and asked him one more question.

"W-what.. what are you doing?" halos pumiyok na ang boses ko, pero pinipigilan ko. I bit my lower lip.

Silence. Like it took him forever to reply.

"I'm going to sleep" he calmly said.

Liar! Gusto ko siyang sigawan at awayin, but I guess I lost all my energy. I bit my lower lip para hindi ako humikbi. I can hear his breathing, waiting for me to reply.

"W-well then, have a.." suminghap muna ako bago pa magpatuloy. "Have a good s-sleep..."

"Why did you call?" he asked.

Umiling ako kahit 'di naman niya ako nakikita. Tears are now falling down on my cheeks. They won't stop!

"Nothing. Bye, Kiel"

When I ended the call, binuhos ko na lahat. Sinandal ko ang noo ko sa steering wheel at humikbi. He just lied to me! He fucking lied to me! Siya lang ang unang lalaki na iniyakan ko ng ganito. This is my first time that I'm badly affected by a guy. I was getting serious already...

Siguro kaya nangyari 'to sa akin dahil pinaglaruan ko lahat ng mga lalaki na nagkakagusto sa akin noon. Ito na ba ang parusa ko?

I got some tissue and turned on the light so I can take a look of myself in the mirror. I look like a mess. Nasira ang mascara ko. 'Di ko siya dapat iniiyakan. I said while wiping my tears. My lips are trembling.

'Di ka dapat nagkakaganito, Ellied! He's just a nerd... a nerd who captured my heart. At dahil rito napaiyak ulit ako.

I got tripped. I hate that he's the only guy who can make me feel a lot of emotions.