He Saved Me

Chp 50

Mia's POV
Daddy's friend seems very nice. She was caring, kind of like Grace. Except she wasn't getting paid to be nice to me. Prince, Paris, and Blanket gave me death glares. And now Daddy looks upset. I didn't realize I was going to make everyone so upset from that question. I just don't get it. If they were married once before, they can get married again right?
"Mia, please finish your food. And then I want to see your homework that you completed," Daddy finally spoke up. He's changing the topic, I can tell. I hate how no one ever tells me what's going on around here. I mean I've been living here for so long, and I just found out today that Daddy got married twice.
"Will I ever have a mommy?" I asked curiously. I guess that had done it for Daddy, because he threw his fork down on the plate and gave me the look.
"Enough with the questions! Finish your food and bring me your homework. I don't wanna hear anything else out of you!" he yelled. My bottom lip quivered and my eyes began to get teary. I don't even know what I did wrong. I looked down at my food, and stayed quiet. No one spoke up after Daddy yelled at me. I guess we were all in a rush to leave the table now. We each washed our utensils, before dispersing into our own rooms.

Michael's POV
I didn't mean to lash out at Mia. I felt so bad when she looked like she was going to cry. But she was asking me questions that I didn't have any answers to. I don't know if she will ever have a mother. It really breaks my heart that I'm not enough for Mia anymore. I'm really trying my best, but it's clearly not good enough. I was now in a bad mood, hurt more than anything else. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I can't help it.
"Well that was something," Lisa Marie nervously chuckled behind me. I didn't even bother turning around. I continued to wash my plate, not wanting to talk about this matter with anyone. "Mike?" she called out. I didn't answer. I felt her place a hand on my shoulder, forcing me to acknowledge her.
"What is it Lisa?" I said annoyed.
"I'm sorry if I made things awkward. That wasn't my intention," she apologized. I let out a sigh and turned around to face her.
"See, this is what I was talking about. Bringing you around confuses the kids. Especially Mia. She's still very young... and I just... ugh!" I grunted. I was pissed. Pissed at the fact that Lisa Marie showed up at the ranch unannounced to begin with, leaving me no time to prepare the children. Pissed at Mia for wanting a mother, when I try sooo hard to be both a mother and father to her. Why can't she recognize and appreciate the love I have for her? But pissed at myself more than anything, for putting myself and the kids in this situation.
"Maybe I should leave," Lisa Marie whispered.
"It's fine," I mumbled. "You're welcome to stay at the guest house," hinting to only stay at the guest house. "I'm sorry I've been rude, it's just when it comes to the kids—" I began.
"I understand. They come first. Well, thank you for the dinner. I'll see you around the ranch I guess," she said before making her way to the door. I watched her leave, knowing I hurt her feelings once again today. I ran my fingers through my hair before walking up to Mia's room. I knocked before entering, finding my little girl wiping away her tears in bed.
"Where's that homework?" I asked gently. She pulled out her folders, showing me what she completed. I looked it over, pointing out a few of her mistakes. She quickly corrected them, bringing us to the point of having the talk. "We need to talk sweetheart," I said in almost a whisper.
"What is it?" she mumbled while looking down.
"I'm sorry for yelling at you during dinner. I didn't mean to," I apologized. Her lips trembled, before she broke out into sobs. I pulled her into a hug and rubbed her back, waiting for her to calm down.
"I don't even know what I did wrong," she cried.
"I know baby and I apologize. You didn't do anything wrong. I know you have questions, I was just a little stressed out. It was my mistake," I said as I placed a kiss on the top of her head. "You can ask me anything you want now, I promise I will try to answer as honestly as I can," I prompted. After a few silent moments, Mia finally spoke up.
"Will you ever get married again?" she asked innocently.
"I don't know sweetheart. Maybe if I find the right person one day, sure. But I have no one in mind right now," I said gently.
"You were married to Lisa Marie before, why don't you marry her again?" she questioned. My mouth slightly dropped at the fact that Mia knew about our history.
"How do you even know that?" I asked.
"Paris told me earlier today," Mia answered. Ugh, I do not want her siblings exposing her to things about my past. Not yet at least.
"Baby I was married to Lisa Marie many years ago. Things didn't work out between us so we got divorced. She's only a friend now," I tried explaining. I guess my answer shattered her hopes of finding her new mother. She stayed quiet and fumbled with her fingers. "I have a question for you Mia," I said nicely.
"What is it?" she asked.
"Well... um... why do you want a mommy?" I asked nervously.
"Because everybody has one, except me," she answered.
"I see, but remember how I told you that families come in different forms? Not everyone has a mommy you know," I pointed out.
"I know, but I just thought it would be nice to have one," she said. That right there broke my heart.
"Am I not doing a good job at being your Daddy?" I asked with glumness in my voice.
"No you are! You're the best Daddy ever!" she said defensively. That sort of made me feel better. But I still felt bad that Mia felt a void in her heart.
"Sweetheart, I know it's different to have only 1 parent instead of 2. But I try really hard to be both for you. You know that right?" I questioned. "I wish I was able to give you a mother, but that's not possible right now. I hope I'll be enough for now." I want her to understand that I try to do my best, at being both her father and mother. Of course I make mistakes, every parent does. But I really do try my best.
"I know Daddy. Please don't be sad. You really are the best Daddy ever. It's okay if I don't have a mommy, I'm happy I have you. Really," she emphasized. I pulled my little girl into a tight hug, not wanting to let go. I don't even think she realizes how much love I have for her in my heart. I feel stupid for even having crazy thoughts about her not loving me the same.
"I love you Mia, you have to know that. I love you very much," I said before I kissed her cheek.
"I love you too," she smiled.
"Why don't you go pick out a book to read tonight?" I prompted. She nodded excitedly before leaving the room, on her quest to find a book for the night.

*I know this chapter was short and weak 😕 I promise the next one will be better*