Photographer

Chapter 50

~The Next Morning~

<Chris P.O.V>

I woke up and checked my phone to see if I had any messages but I didn't. I got up and got my things together so I could leave and go home. After getting everything I walked out the room and spotted Léla in the kitchen.

"Oh hey Chris"

I nodded "Wassup Lé, I didn't think you'd be up this early."

"I usually wake up at this time but were you about to leave?"

"Yeah...I just needed some time to myself. I'll probably call you later ok?"

She smiled and nodded "Ok cool I'll talk to you later"

I smiled and left her house. I went back to my house to take a long shower mainly because I wanted to sort my thoughts out. 30 minutes after I stepped out the shower and wrapped the towel around my waist while walking to my bed.

I needed to talk to my therapist. I really needed to vent, usually I used to vent to Tiana but she's not here. So the only other option is my therapist. I called my therapist to see if he was available today and he was thankfully. I got dressed and headed to his office.

~At Bridgeview Hospital~

"Hello Christopher What brings you here today?"

I confessed "I'm confused"

"About?"

"If I'm really in love or if it's just my disorder"

"What makes you question that?

I sighed "I can't decipher if I love someone or if I'm just obsessed with someone"

"Tell me your definition of love"

I sighed "Um.... Putting all your energy into someone, Wanting them...."

"That's it?" He asked curiously.

"Yeah why? That's all I can think of"

"When you love someone or are in a relationship you don't put all of your energy into it. You both give 50/50. If you put all your energy into someone and they don't give it back it's just gonna be a waist. It can drain you"

I scrunched up my face "So it's wrong?"

"I'm not trying to tell you wrong or right Christopher I'm just giving my sole opinion. And as of wanting somebody what do you mean by that?"

I explained " I mean that I want that person. I want them to be next to me at all times, I want them to please me when I want it, and I want to go everywhere they go basically."

"Can I be honest Chris"

"Nothings stopped you before"

Then he spoke "You're description of 'Wanting' sounds like Obsession to me."

"I see it as kinda clingy but that's fine to me"

"But does your past female companions think that it was fine?"

I grew silent for a minute just to think what he said. I'm pretty sure all my exes loved me being up under them, like come on who wouldn't wanna be under me.