She Felt Like Home

Keep Calm

I don't believe in yelling

Or name calling

During an argument

Because I watched my family make those mistakes

And I promised to myself

 I'd never repeat them

You never understood this rule

And you sure as hell didn't abide by it

As you cut me down with angered tones

And carefully crafted bitting remarks

Like you planned your attack,

Leaving me with a cotton filled mouth

And tear stained eyes you could've avoided

Had you just been civil

While losing your mind over trivial things

You were always regretful,

Quickly apologizing profusely 

Awaiting my forgiveness I never ran out of for you

Only for you to turn back on your promises of doing better

The next time you lost your temper

And all the times after

I think one of your main faults was that

You couldn't find much fault in me,

So you had to fight

When there was nothing at all to argue about

Just to feel like something was wrong

Cause everything being okay

Was always so foreign to you

Your mind couldn't accept it

You just had to ruin something good

And it makes me wonder if you knew

I deserved better

Or if you truly were just that intent on self sabotaging