Little Dark Secrets

Life of a Newborn

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He was so small.

That was Gianni's first thought as the doctor brought his son back. He was washed, wrapped up in a blue blanket and crying loudly. Gianni was so nervous but yet excited. His hands were shaking.

"Welcome to the world. Time for you to meet your mommy and daddy." The nurse smiled at Gianni. His eyes were wide in awe and fear. This was his son. His family.

Jolene's eyes opened drowsily before she began to cry again. The nurse began to reach forward to place the baby in her arms. Jolene was so afraid. What if the kid didn't like her? What if she was going to fail as a mother? What if-

As soon as Jolene touched the child his cries stopped. But hers didn't. She held her son close to her and cried.

"I'm so sorry! I-I'm so so sorry! I love you so much, I didn't mean it." She sobbed her apologies to her baby.

"I didn't mean baby I didn't mean any of it."

She cried for thinking about terminating her pregnancy, she cried for Gianni's suffering childhood, she cried for her father's broken heart, she cried for her mother's shortened life. And finally for the first time in 15 years Jolene Madden really cried for herself.

She cried for what she went through, she cried for her own suffering, she cried because she was terrified she was going to be a terrible mother.

She cried because looking in Gianni's eyes as he encouraged her to push she realized she was in love with him and there was no escaping it.

Gianni slowly walked towards his family and pulled them into his arms. Gianni looked into Jolene's eyes with his watering before bringing his lips to hers. Jo didn't fight this time. She welcomed it.

Their moment was quickly interrupted when baby Madden-Giordano started crying and moving his arms. "He's probably hungry." Gianni states looking at their son. He had a feeling he was going to be a mommy's boy. And Jolene had feeling he would be a cockblock.

"I guess I'm supposed to..." she trailed off embarrassed. Her maternal instincts were still very slow at arriving but she felt the connection with the baby already.

"Yes Jo." Gianni laughed kissing her forehead. She blushed feeling a bit exposed even though she and Gianni have done much nastier together. It was different, she was vulnerable, her emotions were naked she felt like a woman, she felt so different from her normal.

She began to breastfeed him hissing at the initial pain. "I guess I should've gotten you used to that huh?" Gianni tried to joke which was met with by a glare from Jolene.

"What I thought it was funny." He held his hands up in surrender. "You're not funny." Jolene tried to keep a mean face but a little smile snuck it's way on.

"What's his name?" Gianni asked her rubbing her scalp with his fingers. She hummed. "You want me to name him?"

Gianni nodded. "Si voglio che tu lo chiami." He pecked her forehead. Jolene blushed at their newfound affection for eachother.

(Yes I want you to name him)

"Molto bene allora." Jolene inhaled taking a minute to think about it. She looked into his eyes as he fed and saw the great things he would do in the future. He was a fighter already, kicking the hell out of Jo when he was in the womb. She knew what she wanted his name to be.