With Open Eyes

Friends

"Thank you for that," I said as I walked into the front office seeing Lucas at the microphone.

"I just want your forgiveness. I let things get out of control just to save my school image." He steps from behind the desk and walks closer to me. "All this was stupid and hurtful to you."

"Yeah it was stupid. I thought you were a really nice guy before all this." I was angry at the things he started and for the rumors he didn't stop but there was no way to change the past.

"I just want you to give me another shot-"

"Lucas I don't-"

"Just let me finish," He steps closer grabbing my hand into his, "-Riley I want you to give me another shot and if you honestly feel nothing then I still want us to try and be good friends."

"This isn't going to work, I love Maya." It felt amazing to admit to another person. Saying it out loud made me want to say it a million times. "I'm in love with Maya."

"The way you feel for Maya is the way I feel for you." Lucas pulled my hand pulling me closer into him.

"I can't reciprocate your feelings and if you truly just want to be friends you would understand." I squirm in his grip trying to push away from him a little.

"Okay okay. I see that your mind is made up but there's just one more thing I have to do before I can let you go for good." He looked me in my eyes and let me go.

"Okay." I nodded hoping he would just get whatever he is going to say over with.

His lips crashed onto mine and my eyes went wide. I guess I could've seen this coming but I had the hopes that he just wanted to talk.

"Doesn't look like you have any issues kissing him in public huh?" I could hear the annoyance in her voice.

"Maya," I pushed Lucas back "-it's not like that."

"Save it, Riles." Her voice was shaky and it made my stomach drop. "We probably would've never worked out anyway." It hurt to hear her say it out loud and caused a deep ache in my chest that slowly spread through my body. It sounded like she had truly given up on our feelings. My vision began to blur as my eyes started to water. It all happened so quick. Maya walked through the door that led into the front office and I chased after her. Watching her as she passed Farkle in the hallway. His expression was a mix of disappointment and sadness and I just couldn't take it.

"Don't give me that look." I let the tears fall as I rushed into my brothers embrace. "I don't know what to do now."

"No one can change their past actions so don't beat yourself up about what has already happened." Farkle's arms tightened around me as I cried into his shoulder.

"I hurt her and now she's never going to want me back." I managed to get out the breathy words and the feeling of them sliding off my lips made me realize how bad this had turned. And it was all because I was willing to forgive the person who started it all.

"Riley I'm sorry." I can hear the emotions in his voice and I hope he realizes how much he's hurt me.

"I know you want to be friends but you're making everything worse," I turn and walk towards Lucas. My tears are gone but I can feel the wet trails they left behind. My sadness has turned to anger and my anger came from him. "You've ruined everything. Maybe there'll be a day where I forgive you but today isn't it, not unless you can go back in time and stop yourself from kissing me." I turn back around and walk quickly through the hallway to my dads classroom.