Alex followed Mia, trying hard not to lose his mind as they walked. He kept quiet, trying to collect his thoughts at place. The walking seemed forever and he had no idea how much time he had left until they came to their destined place. The place they'd be torn apart. He didn't know how to act or what to do or say. She looked visibly uncomfortable as well. He just tried to keep up his pace with hers, even if it was quick, as if she just wanted this to be over with.
Mia stopped walking suddenly. Alex's heart dropped. He knew what this meant. He kept looking at his feet while he was walking, but now he had to look up. She was standing near a huge door, locked tightly.
"So this is where they get people from Earth..." Alex said, expecting something much more grander than some old rusty door.
"Ah, you'd be surprised at how lame this world actually is." She muttered, crossing he arms as she looked at the floor.
She felt his gaze on her. She was forced to look up. Exactly why she didn't want to look at him. He looked at her with his yellow puppy dog eyes, full of tears and begging. She growled under her breath, clenching her fists. He just couldn't make this easy, could he?
"What!?" She yelled out, bursting out her emotions.
She felt too much. Happiness that he cared so much, yet at the same time anger. Mia just wished he didn't care, so she wouldn't feel guilty leaving him here alone. But of course she had to let him get friendly with her. She should've resisted... But he was so hard to resist, he shouldn't have been so stubborn. Too much thoughts went through her mind, feeling like her head was going to self destruct from blaming him, to herself, to her parents and all the way to the entire world.
"Why do you have to leave?" He whispered out, suddenly looking very close to breaking down.
"You said you'd just come with me, not try to make me rethink my decisions." She tried being cold, but to no avail, her eyes got teary as well.
"I-I'm not, please, I just want to know why I'm losing you..." Alex stepped closer to her, putting his hands on her shoulders gently and slowly, trying not to push her away.
She stood in place, almost frozen. She looked as if she was fighting herself not to melt under his touch. She just wanted to be emotionless, it would make all of this so much easier.
"If I told you, you'd try to convince me otherwise." Mia retorted coldly, trying to get away from his grip, but he wouldn't let her.
"Stop being cold. This is the last time I'll see you. I want you to be genuine. I won't try to stop you, I promise, just please be honest with me." And he started tearing up as he spoke, wanting her to talk and be honest, just this one last time.
"I..." She started, her lip quivering.
"I want to kill myself." She finished, noticing just how terrible it sounded.
His eyes widened. He let out even more tears as he hugged her tightly. She hugged back, crying on his shoulder. She couldn't bare it anymore. She never said this sentence to anyone and it hurt so bad.
"I hoped that on Earth... I could kill myself. I can't do it here. The pain just keeps continuing and I'm just here suffering. I want it to end already, Alex." She cried even harder as he squeezed her.
"I understand, Mia, I-I really d-do..." His sobs were louder and harsher than Mia's, as if he was more pained by her suicide plans than she was.
"I'm so sorry I was like this, I didn't want to hurt you, everything hurts, I just want it to end already, I keep ruining everything! I keep being selfish, I just don't want you worrying, I just waste my life and yours, I just want to end it!" She sobbed and sobbed, it all came out finally.
But the worst part of it all was that it still didn't help. She still felt horrible guilt for letting him hear this. For letting herself be like this in front of him. This weak and helpless. She was just a burden that needed to get rid of.
"Are you sure I can't help you?" He questioned softly, not knowing what to do.
"... Yes." She tried to be calm, but as soon as she answered that question she broke down once more.
"We could try psychiatrists or something-" He was cut off by Mia.
"Alex, I tried. I tried it all. I'm a fucking hopeless case!" She sobbed once more.
He continued hugging her, crying along side her, not wanting to let her go. Finally he felt close to her, truly close. Like he just got to know her. How could he let her go? But the worst part of it was, he knew he couldn't keep her around. It pained him so much.
"You're not, if you tried a bit more, I could help, Adrien could help, Eleonore could help, I-" His attempts were futile as she cut him off once more, this time breaking out of the hug, looking him in the eyes with her dark red ones very very pleadingly.
"Stop trying to convince me otherwise. You promised you wouldn't." She never looked so helpless in her life, he felt guilt once more.
"Is there any chance, I don't care how little, even the tiniest bit of chance, that when you come to Earth... That you won't..." He choked on the last word, unable to say it from the pain.
"I... I'll see." She said in an uncertain manner, avoiding his gaze.
Even that was enough to give Alex hope. He hugged her once more tightly, happy she'll still try. Even if he knew it wasn't going to happen, he could still hope. It was so hard to let go now, even more than before.
"Thank you, Mia, thank you so much!" He hugged her so tightly that she could barely breathe.
"You just made this ten times harder for me, Al." Mia told him with a small smile.
"I'm sorry for making it harder." He smiled back, although it was pained.
"No. I'm sorry for making you let me go." She spoke from the heart.
This all felt so wrong, but in reality, there wasn't anything he could do. Even if he begged on his knees and cried his eyes out, she'd still go. She's just like that. The least he could do is make this decision easier for her. Maybe it really was better like this.
"I... I forgive you, I guess." He answered, concluding this would be the right answer in this situation.
"That means a lot." She hugged him one last time.
"I have to go now, Al. Thank you for understanding." She said honestly, not feeling angry or contempt that he didn't try to stop her, this was just something she genuinely wanted.
Before he could speak up, something loud started ringing. He widened his eyes, so did she. The alarms. They knew what this meant, it was bad.
Her plan didn't work.
