RoadTrip One Shots BxB

Things change

I guess it was meant to change. And it did. I was happy. Happiness doesn't last forever. I'm writing this to you, No not you mum. To anyone reading this. I thought live wasn't worth living but I was so wrong. I was so close to giving up, I was sat on my window sill ready to jump, I kept telling myself nobody needed me nobody cared. I hadn't said goodbye to anyone so I decided that was best. I walked downstairs to get some paper to write my goodbyes. But for some reason my tv was on, It came up with a vlog. It was titled "The Journey Begins" It was a band. Looking for trialists. I've always wanted to be part of a band. I just assumed I wasn't good enough.

A good few weeks later I worked up the courage to message the manager. I was soon replied to telling me to send him a video of me singing. I did so. He said I was a talented singer and with the right work I could go far, he invited me down to the flat with the band members in. I accepted and went down for the week. Well that was what it was originally meant to be. I immediately clicked with the three other boys. They made me feel so welcomed, I still had my bad days, I still had my scars. 

I got particularly close with the cutest member of the band, Rye. We spend every day together whether it was at the flat cuddling and watching a movie or out messing about and laughing. He made me so grateful I didn't give up that day. We started dating and I couldn't be happier, I let my feelings go to him. My insecurities and pain, my scars and emotional baggage. I thought me and rye were forever. I guess I was wrong.

Mikey had a girlfriend and Andy insisted he was happy on his own. I was convinced Rye was my happy ending, I guess I was wrong. I walked into his room one day. The 21st of October to be precise. He was sat on his bed making out with Andy. I couldn't turn away, I was stuck staring at my boyfriend and bandmate kissing and I couldn't do anything. Rye finally pulled away and his eyes caught mine, The guilt washed over his face as I stood there tears pouring down my cheeks. Andy looked at me he could tell I was broken, I knew he felt bad but I hated them both for doing this to me. Especially Rye because he knew my past.

I took a break. As the band wasn't very big or on tour this wasn't an issue, However when I came back a few weeks later I found out Rye and Andy were dating. I was completely and utterly devastated, Mikey calmed me down and looked after me until his girlfriend came around and once again I was alone, like I had been my whole life.

I was a few months clean thanks to Rye, but after all the pain I resorted back to hurting myself. It was the only consistent thing in my life and I couldn't cope without it. It got to the point where my legs and arms were covered in fresh cuts everyday. Of course none of the boys knew, I didn't tell them.

And then came Jack. Jack Duff, He was incredible at everything he did. I was still hurting myself everyday but it was getting harder as Jack kept asking if I was okay and he was really hard to lie to. I found myself falling hard for the cute Irish boy that showed interest in me. One day I was sat on my bed in shorts and a shirt exposing all my fresh cuts to the world because I was on my own. However Jack walked in and saw every single one of them, I heard a sniff from behind me and jumped reaching for a jumper. He looked so sad, not annoyed disappointed just sad. 

Jack wouldn't let me go anywhere on my own after that day, It was hard at first stopping what was part of my routine. But with Jacks help I managed it, And everyday without it I fell more and more in love with the Irish kid. He smiled at me and my heart would melt.

Okay okay if you are under the age of 1- actually if you want to see my happy, then keep reading.

06/07/19 It was Jack's birthday, He was so excited as we were doing our last tour of the ep tour today, Birmingham. I had decided to ask him to be mine, I couldn't be sure if he liked me but I couldn't wait another day to find out. We walked into Meet and greet after the show, We said hello to the last roadies and one of them rapped herself around my waist, I spotted a few red marks under her sleeve and hugged her tighter. When we got back to the green room I turned to Jack and asked him to be mine. He said yes and it was the best day of both our lives.

Me and Jack have been together for three years now, The band is still together and I am happier than I have ever been. I just want to thank My Tv for showing my that video

-Brook x

A/N: I am going through a lot rn with this kinda thing, so this is based of my life atm. Well in a way. Its about how the boys saved my life when I was so close to giving up. I am so greatful for the 5 of them. Also the two dates included are very close to my heart. The 21st of October is when I first met Mikey and Andy and 06/07/19 Is when I am lucky enough to get to meet all the boys :) Just remember I love you all and your life Is worth living xx