When I'm broken - Completed

Chapter 17

(Tori's POV)

"Hon?"

Napalingon si Tori kay James ng tawagin siya nito. She was spacing out for a bit because she was thinking of someone again.

Ni text kasi mula dito wala pa siyang na re received.

"Yes Hon?" her smile was strained. Ilang araw na siyang sawang sawa na lagi niyang kasama si James. She was always looking for a certain someone and she don't know the reason why. Maybe it's because she liked Roni's company so much. Lagi kasi siya nitong pinapangiti even when they are not having sex.

"Ano kayang bagay sakin na damit? You know may training kami sa camp ng tatlong araw for that upcoming basketball competition. I need to look good."

She almost rolled her eyes. James was pretty obsessed with the way he looks. Feeling nito ang gwapo gwapo nito. At yun ang ayaw niya dito. Bukod pa sa minsan hindi siya nito inaalalalayan sa tuwing bababa sila sa sasakyan kagaya na lang ngayon. She doesn't even know what she felt for him now.

Huminto ang sasakyan nito sa parking. Agad itong lumabas at hinintay na lang siya na magbukas ng sarili niyang pinto.

"Tara na" he offered his hands. Walang alinlangan na hinawakan niya iyon. Even thought she really wants to roll her eyes.

Ilang minuto pa lang silang nag lilibot sa mall when she saw a familiar figure. Roni is with Honey and they are eating gelato while smiling at each other. Sumikip ang dibdib niya.

Why does it hurt seeing the two of them together? Napahawak siya sa dibdib niya, where her heart is. She can also feel her eyes sting.

But her damn eyes betrayed her. Talagang bumalik iyon sa dalawang ngayon ay nag haharutan na.

She quickly wiped something from her eyes. Sakto namang dumating si James may bitbit itong mga damit sa isang sikat na fashion store.

"Hey are you crying? Gusto mo din ba ng ice cream?" Luminga linga ito sa paligid. Kumunot ang noo nito." Is that......"

Hinawakan niya ito sa kamay. "No I think mali ka ng nakita. Let's go."

Lumingon pa ito sa dalawa bago tuluyang sumunod sa kanya palabas.

"That was awesome! Magiging gf na ba ni Roni si Honey?" nilingon pa siya ni James.

Humalukipkip siya. Saka tumingin sa labas ng bintana. Bumabiyahe na sila pauwi. Ihahatid na rin siya nito sa condo niya.

"I don't know." Napairap siya sa kawalan. Isang araw lang nawala si Roni. Yun pala andun ito sa bestfriend nito. Hindi niya naman ito ma texts dahil baka makahalata si James. Mahilig pa naman nitong tingnan ang mga messages niya or agawin ang phone niya. Parang wala siyang privacy pag ito ang kasama niya. And mostly she was afraid of being found out.

"Hey hon can we do sexy time?"

Papasok na siya noon sa pintuan ng condo niya ng hawakan ni James ang kamay niya.

She looked him in the eyes. And she doesn't know why pero agad na pumasok sa isip niya ang eksena kanina. Roni was smiling at Honey.

Kaya naman walang alinlangan na binuksan niya ang pinto ng condo niya at hinila si James sa loob. Kissing him deeply and torridly this time.

Gusto niyang burahin sa alaala niya ang nakita kanina and maybe when she's exhausted enough she will forget about it.

...........

Napahilamos siya sa mukha niya. Saka tumingin sa orasan. It was 4 o clock in the morning. She felt groggy and tired. Ang isa pang inaalala niya ay hindi sila gumamit ng protection ni James kanina. Ipinutok nito iyon sa loob.

Oo at nag sisisi siya but she can't do nothing about it. It was in the height of passion. Sana walang mabuo.

Unang araw pa naman ng pasok ngayon at ito naman ay unang araw sa training camp.

Agad siyang naligo at nag kuskos ng buong katawan niya. Why does she felt dirty being touched by James for this past few days? But with Roni everything is perfect.

"I--I Love----"

Napapikit siya sa shower. Hinayaan niyang tumama sa mukha niya ang tubig.

What are you really going to say Roni?

Umiling siya. Hindi naman siguro iyon ang gusto nitong sabihin.

"I love it when you moan."

Isa pang iling. She knew what that means. Iba ang gusto nitong sabihin yet the words are left unspoken. Napatiimbagang siya. Pano nito iyon nasasabi samantalang kasama nito kahapon lang si Honey?

She wants to confront Roni but everytime she does. Mukhang iniiwas din nito ang lahat. Kaya naman she tried to spend more time with Roni. She tried to also show her by always wanting to do it with her. Isa pa hindi ba nito nahahalata ang pag seselos niya? The subtle ways she wants to always get her attention?

Hindi niya alam kung kailan nag simula but she started falling to Roni. Gustong gusto niya itong makita, kahit na alam niyang may boyfriend siya. Her heart wouldn't stop thinking about Roni.

Na sana ok lang ito, sana maayos ang lagay at hindi mapahamak.

Napatakip siya sa mukha niya. She wants to cry so badly. "Roni......I want you.... I want you right now..."

Kinuskos niya ng kinuskos ang katawan niya para mawala ang bakas ni James.

And when she's satisfied. Lumabas na siya ng c.r at nag bihis. James was still fast asleep in her bed where Roni and her made love a couple of times.

Napangiti siya ng mapait bago lumabas ng condo niya.

........

"Hey!" She saw Dean walking towards her. Ngumiti siya dito.

"Hi!" lumingon siya sa likod nito. But she didn't saw Roni. Her chest constricted. She was sure she was disappointed. Kasama na naman ba nito si Honey? Ni hindi siya nito tini text. Kahapon niya pa inaantay ang text nito.

Nakita siguro ni Dean ang paglingon niya sa likuran nito.

Ngumisi ito. "Yeah. My sister had been hanging out with Honey this past few days." Dumukwang pa ito at bumulong sa tenga niya. "I think they are starting to like each other."

Natigilan siya sa sinabi nito. Pero hindi niya pinahalata at ngumiti ng pilit dito. "T-Talaga? If you see her please tell her I need to see her."

Why does it hurt to hear anything about Roni taking another lover?

Kumunot ang noo nito. "She didn't chat or texted you? Hmmm that's odd. She's the type to always hang out with you too right?"

Tumango siya dito. Nakipag kwentuhan pa ito saglit saka sila nag paalam sa isa't isa.

She was walking towards the classroom when she saw the person she wants to see the most this past few days.

"R-Roni."she whispered her name.

Tila natigilan din ito habang nakaakbay kay Honey.

"H-Hi Tori. I was just---"

Hindi niya na napigilan ang sarili niya at lumapit na siya dito. Mukhang nagulat ito kaya naman bahagya itong napabitaw sa pagkakaakbay kay Honey. Honey's eyebrows knitted.

"I----" missed you. "I want to talk to you. Can you come over to my condo?" she didn't dare uttered those words while Honey was here.

Tumingin muna ito kay Honey. Tumango naman ang huli dito. But not before glaring at her first.

"S-Sige let's talk. I'll text you later." Yun lang at tumalikod na ito.

Malungkot na tinanaw niya ang papalayo nitong pigura kasama si Honey. She realized something today. She had liked Roni a lot before and now she wasn't sure if it's on a borderline of like and love.

Ngunit handa niya bang iwan ang normal na buhay na meron siya? Para lang ipaglaban ang nararamdaman niya sa isang babae? Sa isang kapwa niya babae?