|chapter nine: i still love you|
Chan's POV
This ain't right, though. I think I should've listen to her explanation. In that case, maybe we didn't broke up. Siguro kung 'di lang ako nakinig kay Nica at pinakinggan lang si Ja, sana ngayon, naintindihan ko.
Sana ngayon, hindi ko sinasaktan sarili ko.
Ja and I are still talking with each other pero hindi na katulad ng dati.
I'm currently chatting with other girls. But Faith is...
Faith:
babbyyy!!!
i miss u.
I turn off my phone.
Hindi ko mapigilan na hindi siya maalala sa mga maliliit na bagay. But... what can I do to cease these pain I'm feeling right now?
Faith:
talk to me pls.
It's been a month since we broke up yet I know to myself that there's no one na makakapalit sa kaniya.
later, i'm busy.
I close my eyes after answering Faith's messages to me.
Si Faith... crush ko 'yon eh. Oo, crush lang.
I have to accept the fact that I have to disperse these pain first before going to another relationship. She said that she can be a rebound hanggang sa mahulog ako sa kaniya.
But heck! I know that wouldn't happen. I made a promise with Justin that I'll fulfill. It's hard for me to let go of someone I love the most for almost two years. Mahal ko na siya kahit hindi pa niya ako nakikilala.
And the thought of her, loved me even for a short period of time, I'm happy. One week lang tinagal namin pero parang isang buong taon na 'yon para sa'kin na puno ng pagmamahal.
"Chan," napalingon ako at nakita ko si Nica.
"Uy," natawa ako sa hitsura niya. "Musta atenik? Ang haba na ng buhok mo, kasing haba ng bakasyon ah."
"Chan, sorry."
Nagtaka ako sa sinabi niya. "Ha? Sorry para sa'n?"
"Kasi--"
"Chan Leonardo Barcille!" Napalingon naman agad ako sa may pinto ng classroom namin at nakkta ko si Marya na mayor namin. "Pinapatawag ka sa guard house may naghihintay daw sa'yo."
Agad naman akong pumunta ng guard house at nakita ko si Faith.
Bullshit.
"Ano ginagawa mo dito?"
"I wan'ed to see you eh kaya pumunta ako."
Huminga ako ng malalim. "I told you I'm busy, right?"
"I know but--" itinulak ko siyang bahagya sa kaniyang balikat at do'n ko nakita si Ja sa likod niya na naglalakad papasok ng campus.
Sinundan ko siya ng tingin pero kinalabit ako ni Faith kaya naman napabalik ang tingin ko sa kaniya. "Leave, Faith."
"Pero--"
"I said leave." I said with an emphasis.
Wala siyang nagawa kundi ang umalis nalang.
After two months, Justin and I started talking again.
Dude, I missed her. So damn much.
i miss you.
Ja:
Weh?
Aren't you going out wth Faith?
