I've always felt suffocated
I was always filled with pain and fear
She hurt me, but always laughed at me
I couldn't take it anymore
I wanted to leave
But I couldn't
I was to scared to leave
But to add it up I was fear in love
I was only telling myself
"You love her"
"You love her"
But I didn't, I only said that to calm myself
Years all gone to waste
All because of YOUR mistakes
The happiness we had at first
Where did it go?
Why did you drastically change?
I honestly don't know..
"Was it because of something I did?"
"Was I not enough?"
"Did something happen?"
"Did you just fall out of love?"
"Is that why you cheated?"
These were the questions I had for you.
I suffered years with you
I was traumatized
I remember when you forced me to take your first
I didn't want to
But I was too scared to say no
I remember the pain I had when you cheated
I saw you with my two eyes
You just smiled and laughed at me
But in the end I was just your play toy
Did you know how much I suffered?
You obviously didn't
You just used me
You just never cared anymore
I missed the old you
The sweet, kind and caring side of you
But it vanished after some time
1 and a half year filled with happiness and precious moments
The other 1 and a half year were filled with fear, scars, hate, flaws, drama, cheating, and pressure
Hey, Nikki
I forgive you, I do
I also want thank you for hurting me
People may think I'm crazy saying this
But I don't care
Why?
Because I don't want to hold grudges of the past
You may have hurt me
You may have made me suffer
You may have traumatized me
But you gave me something
You gave me new feelings
You opened my eyes
Because of your mistakes
Yes, I won't lie
You held me back from ever falling in love again
How long did it take?
It took me 2 years to recover
But between those two years I met someone who helped me so much
Her name is Kim Manoban Jisoo
Yes, you read it right
She is my wife of 4 years
We've been together for 6 years
We are expecting our first baby
It's going to be a girl!
Ugh, she made me fall hard for her
She helped me pick myself up again
She broke down the walls I had built up
Nikki
Thank you really
I do mean it
Because if you hadn't hurt me I wouldn't of met the love of my life
I wouldn't be having my first baby on it's way
I'm happy I escaped you
I still love you partially, but not the way I did before
Thank you for being a chapter of my life
Our story has ended
Yes, It may have had a sad ending
Which is okay
Not everything has its happy ending
But ever since I met Jisoo
I know I'll finally have my happy ending
I'm going to fight for Jisoo and our baby
Even if it kills me
No matter what in the end
My family will be my happy ending and I thank you for that
YOU ARE READING
Love Lisoo
FanfictionRandom Lisoo chapters with a little Chaennie here and there, hope you enjoy. uwu Start: Tuesday, January 22th. End: - Not Decided Yet -