too broken /yoonmin/

5

Jimin felt bad as he stared at himself in the mirror hanging on his bedroom door.

He didn't know why but the thought of Yoongi seeing him like this made him feel terribly sick.

    "Shut up, Jimin. Stop being stupid." He says to himself as he turns away from the mirror.

All the old feelings that had resurfaced during his conversation with Yoongi were starting to turn on him.

He hadn't thought this much about his weight since he checked into the hospital.

He wouldn't call the thoughts obsessive, but they were definitely nagging him since he's been home.

    "H-Hyung?" Soonyoung calls through the door.

    "I'm coming, Hoshi." Jimin calls back, going to change his clothes quickly.

They were supposed to be going out to the new club that opened a few days ago and Jimin was honestly dreading it.

He feels like his jeans fit him too tightly and his shirt isn't as baggy as he thought it'd be when he bought it.

He combs his hair before leaving his room to meet Soonyoung.

He finds the other sitting on the couch biting his nails.

    "Ready?" He asks him, smiling when he sees that he's wearing the outfit he picked out for him. "You look nice."

    "Thanks. You do too." The younger says standing and grabbing his jacket.

Jimin smiles bigger when the boy doesn't stutter over his words.

    "Should we s-stop to eat first?" He asks looking over at Jimin.

    "Um...sure. If you want. I'm not really hungry." Jimin says, the lie slipping from his lips naturally.

He doesn't know why he lied, he doesn't know what made him try to fight the hunger he's been feeling for the past few hours.

    "You ate at work?" Soonyoung asks knowing that Jimin didn't eat before he left this morning.

    "Yeah." Jimin lies again. "We can stop for you though, I don't mind."

    "I ate already. I-I was just making sure you-you did." The younger says slipping his jacket on. "Let's go?"

    "Yeah. Let's go." Jimin says forcing a smile.

The feeling he gets in his gut at the thought of not eating all day makes him scared.

He knew that if he wasn't careful he could possibly trigger a relapse.

But it was hard when all he could think about is how fat he's gotten since he's seen Yoongi last.

Yoongi probably thought he was fat.

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Yoongi sat in the bathroom staring at the last few letters that Jimin sent him before he got out of the hospital.

He couldn't stop comparing them to the first ones he received.

He could tell just by the letters how much Jimin's mindset had cleared and gotten better over time.