Love i never knew... (bwwm)

chapter 13

The birth of Meredith had been so lovely, she reminds me everyday to cherish all that you have. I look at her and smile, her blue eyes staring back at me, I let her know everyday she is my number one girl. When Jace come to visit he too wants all my attention, I also let him know he's my number one man. Philip since Meredith's birth has slowly gotten back to his old self, slowly, he still doesn't talk  as much as he use to, but when he is with Meredith I can see my Philip again.

I put Meredith to bed and walked out into the living room where Philip was looking through the window. He has yet to acknowledge me.

"We need to talk, for months now you haven't spoken more than two sentences to me and that hurts, as your wife I mean I feel so strange around you, you treat me like shit, you don't say anything but the way how you look at me , I do. I knew things have changed but you should talk to me let me know how you feel instead of not say anything. We took vows to be together through thickness and thin and if you weren't going to honor it then we shouldn't have been married. If your plan was to cheat on me with Nicole then you shouldn't have knocked me up and marry me, you work long hours and have me here thinking its ok. If you want a divorce just tell so, instead of having me worried. "

Still didn't say anything after two minutes of silence I got the message, I walked into our bedroom grabbed, Meredith and the baby bag along with my sweater walking out the apartment leaving Philip there.

I didn't want to go to my family because I don't feel like talking, instead I went to Franks apartment in Tribeca, Jace as ever was happy to see me and so was Frank. Meredith was still asleep thank God. I sat on the couch with Jace in my hand, Frank sat next to me.

"He didn't do anything wrong he's just messed up about the whole mom situation,  and he just didn't want to stress you, you were pregnant,  he talked to me and Susan a lot, he didn't  know how to approach you. He really loves you,  he just had a hard time telling you what he was going through and am sure you would have been annoyed too by him telling you."

I must admit maybe I wasn't at all the best when it came to the pregnncy thing, but I knew I had to make it right, I hugged Frank and grabbed my coat, I left Meredith there because I needed to be alone with Philip.

I arrived at our apartment Philip was sitting on the couch, he looked up when he sae me enter, I walked over and sat next to him.

He grabbed my hand and began to rub.

"First off I never want you to think I don't appreciate or take  you seriously or whatever crazy thought you may have. I didn't talk to you as much because I didn't know how to, my mom was dieing and I didn't know how to handle it. Even though we had a rough relationship I loved her and losing her made me realize how short life is. I love you and I love our daughter so much, but when you were pregnant,  you were going through so much emotions you made it impossible to talk to so I shut down and talk to my brother and sister and yes Nicole, but not like that. I would never cheat on you with her, I just didn't know how to handle everything and I am sorry about that so much."

"Me too."

I kissed him and for the first time in months I can say Philip,  my Philip is back.