Love i never knew... (bwwm)

chapter 4

Hi guys before you read, there are some errors, for some reason I have read over and correctes them. The spelling are accurate on my pages but not on the viewers, I have tried countless times to get it fixed but nothing... So sorry for the misspelling...

Sorry guys but sometimes I switch from first to third person, unkowingly,  but I will fix it....

It was now Monday morning and still no text message from Philip, maybe what I thought was happening again and again. Not feeling discouraged. I walked up to his office and without knocking enter, as usual he was sitting at his desk, looking so beautiful and clean. I didn't  say a word just walked over and kneeled down kissing him, he was as shocked as I was towards my display of affection. I got up and looked down at him.

"That was for Saturday night."

He got up and grabbed my face and began kissing it over and over, it felt so good so right until I pulled back.

"You didn't text me back."

"Am sorry, my friends kidnapped me and took me to this weird woods place and took my phone, so that text was sent before they got it, but am sorry it wasn't a me dodging you or anything."

"I wasn't worried, I had work to do remember?

He smiles at me,  "of course you do, so what you doing today?"

"Work."

"I meant tonight, I want you to come over to my place so I can cook for you."

I became skeptical and he could see it on her face.

"Not like that, nothing will happen, I want to see you." He reassured her.

"Ok am letting my guard down for this one."

I turned to walk away when he grabbed my hand and gave me one more kiss, before we could finish the door busrt open and in walks Nicole. Clearly shocked from what she had just witnessed.

"Am sorry, am I interrupting anything?"

I quickly pulled away and walked out the office.

His apartment like his office was beautiful, big and comfy. You could tell he was rich because of how big it was. The walls were glass overlooking the city night. All the furniture and couch were black. Except a huge white two piece blanket on the floor near the walls, its like he sleeps there when he wants to see the city lights.

"Nice apartment. "

"Thanks"  he said as he walked into his even more beautiful state of the art kitchen, all stainless appliances.

"Nicer kitchen."

I watched in aww as he made us vegetarian lasagna. We had dinner on the deck.

"I am really impressed,  you're good."

"One of the few things I can truly cook.

" he admitted.

"Well I appreciate it."

The rest of the night we played catch up to sunday, talking and laughing. After dinner we fell asleep on his white sheet over looking the city, it was nice sleeping in his arms and hope it happens again.

Day to day our lives got better, we would go to each others places after work for dinner and to relax with each other, I was slowly letting him in and was feeling comfortable with him. At work I would get small kisses but not in front everyone, but in his office or in mines. Of course I get dirty looks from Nicole but that didn't stop me from seeing Philip, I liked him more and more everyday and she wasn't going to stop that from happening. Our relationship has progressed over time, its already been six months but still I wasn't ready to say 'boyfriend' because in the past as soon as I do it was over. We are committed to each other but I am very superstitious. Finally I met his friends I am not ready for family yet,  all the guys that was staring at me at the gym. Tim, Rick, Nick and David were friendly,  more so than I thought and welcoming. It was like it was a blue eyes club, because they all had blue eyes and worked on wall street too. Everyone except David has a girlfriend,  all gorgeous women I must say, almost like supermodels. He reminded me of Philip, but he was two inches shorter. Joining us too was Nicole the girl of the group, she seems to fit in fine, beer drinking and swearimg like a sailor, but yes all night she kept trying daggers at me. Who cares. Both Philip and Nicole went to buy us aome drinks, leaving me  next to David.

"Is she always like this?" I asked.

"Yes only with Philip."

The night was lovely Philip kept stealimg kisses and boy it felt good to be wanted. Our relationship continued with our usual routine, except one night I got ready for bed and only had on a white bra and black panty, I walked into his bedroom and lay next to him. His eyes didn't leave  my body, I could tell he wanted me. He grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him,  I could feel the growing bulge in his pants and I was nervous. He began kissing me, rubbing his hand down my body, my that feels good. He twist me around landing on the bed, I was feeling nervous, why thought he has seen me naked before, we have never been intimate before, it's weird, I would find any reason not to have sex with him and its not  him. It was me. I pushed him away and got up he looked at him as if he did something wrong.

"I can't do this, I am just not ready."

"What we have been together for nine months, everytime we are suppose to have sex, you brush me off. I am sick of it, if it was any other man he would have been gone." He fumed.

"Then it shows that's all he is interested in, sex and that's it." I fought back.

He soften and walked over to me.

"That's not what I am saying, I just want us to be ready for it."

" I really want its just that, I made a promise to myself that I won't do nothing until I know for sure that he's the one."

"So I am not the one?" He questioned.

"That's not what am saying, am saying I want a mental connection,  not just physical and the sex will be perfect, to the point where it will be all day, all week."

Then it happened.

"I love you" he said, it sent in into a frenzy, he loved me.

"I love you too", I meant it, for the first time in my life, I meant it, I do. Everything he does for me, the way he smells, just him.