Loved You First (HARRY STYLES)

Part 1

Paige POV

As I'm nearing my destination my stomach begins to flutter and my head spins as the thought of being home sinks in. Its been five years, five years away from London and I even don't know what to expect. I know this day would come and I've been reliving it in my head for more than a hundred times but now that its truly happening I can't seem to figure out what to feel. The long flight couldn't help me, I tried to sleep but I can't.

Its been my long time dream to study in New York and now that I've made it come true, I should be happy but I'm not completely, knowing that I've left someone from the past, someone I don't think I'm ready to face. Not now, maybe not ever.

"Ladies and gentlemen we have just arrived in London Heathrow Airport. Hope to see you on your next flight" the speakers on the plane announces our arrival making me whimp on my seat.

I took my time retrieving my luggage, hoping my anxiety will simmer down. As I went out to the arrival lounge I immediately spot my mom and dad. Smiles on their faces. I could feel the wetness in my eyes as I walk towards them. God, its been too long. My parents hasn't change a bit only a few puffs of white hair from here and there.

"Welcome home sweetheart" mom let out a sob as she hugs me tightly. "I miss you so much and I'm so glad you're home now." she continued while giving my dad a chance to welcome me. "I still couldn't believe your here now Paige, five years was so long" dad hugged me as well. No matter how anxious I am about this home coming thing, Im sure glad to see my parents.

I help dad put my luggage in our car and I couldn't help but ask him about our place.

"How's Holme's dad?" I ask

"Well, nothing much has changed, same town, same neighbors."

"Great, I guess I didn't miss out a lot"

"You know I'm not really the type who knows things about some things but you could use tonight to your advantage." dad said with a wink. My dad has this playful vibe which I wish I got.

"And you mean?"

"We're invited to have dinner at Susan's tonight. You know its kind of an annual thing for us to join them in their anniversary" My heart skip a beat when I heard the name.

"Since when?" I ask curiously. Styles' has been our family friend ever since but anniversary dinner weren't out thing.

"Its been lonely since Harry and you were away, so we kinda merge"

"Ohhkaayy" I said. Of course this will happen. Eventually I need to face him. I just didn't know it coming this early. Memories are beginning to flashback, the wheels on my head have been turning since I left New York trying to find the right direction but now everything starts to blur as my heart speeds up.

Our house looks the same, the familiar view seems to lighten the storm of feelings I have inside. The porch where we used to hangout is the first thing I've notice. Mom placed more flowerpots in there, making it more beautiful. I remembered she scold Harry when he accidentally broke one of those. There was also a time when we agreed to study together but he ended up snoring. Happy memories, we're full of them. Everytime I think about it, I feel guilty coz I left. Well, I'm happy to be home now, hoping I could just feel this way but I know I won't, especially not after what I've learned from dad.

I wonder if the feelings would still be there. I wonder if he will still treat me the same. After all he is my bestfriend, bummer is I don't feel that for him. He's more to me, more than a bestfriend but I can't just shove my feelings in his face especially when he doesn't feel the same. When we moved in Holmes, Harry was the first person I considered friend. We were eight then, I didn't know what love is but I think its what I felt the first time I look into his eyes. I was a weakling growing up, I'm always sick, so I stayed home most of the time. All of the kids from school stayed away from me, thinking I have something contagious. But Harry didn't, instead he visits every after school. We used to play pretend before. He's the king and of course I'm the queen. We used to take afternoon naps together and have oreo and milkshake for snacks later. The feelings that I have for him slowly grow into something deep and its so deep now that even after five years it still remains.