Loved You First (HARRY STYLES)

Part 33

Paige POV

The sound of the beeping machine woke me up. Trevor is asleep his hands holding mine.

"Trev" I called but he didn't move.

"Trevor" my voice weak as I try to sit up still nothing from him. I shook his shoulder but Trevor remained silent.

"Trev, its not funny. Wake up"

A guy dressed in white went inside.  A mask covers his face but his eyes visible.

"Hey, can you please call my mom or somebody outside,I think my husband's sick" I told him, but he didn't answer. He lift Trevor using one arm and carry him in his shoulder like he weigh nothing, I grab ahold of Trevor's hand this time holding it tightly not letting him slip.

"Where are you taking him?"

"What the fuck are you doing? If you don't want to call my mom just put him down and I'll do it myself"

"Can you hear me? I said put him down or I'll call the cops"

Trevor's hand slips and I scream to ask for help but my voice wouldn't come out. The guy disappeared from the door with Trevor.

"Mom!"

"Somebody stop that guy"

"Help!"

Today is Trevor's funeral. I couldn't feel anything, pain, sadness were not even enough, if there's something I would describe how I feel, it would be death. Trevor's passing is so sudden its hard for me to process everything. He left and here I am sitting infront of his coffin. My mouth's too dry to speak, my eyes run out of tears. I wanted to thank the people who are here for their condolences but I  can't move.

"Paige" I hear Harry's voice as he come to greet me. That voice who never fails to bring shivers down my spine but now I feel nothing. He squeezed my hand but I'm too numb, too numb to feel a thing.

"She hasn't talked nor eat" I heard mom say beside me.

"I got here as soon as I received the invitation, I'm so sorry for what happen"

"Its so sudden Harry, I too weren't expecting this to happen. Trevor is a good man"

I can feel his eyes on me as he sat beside mom.

"How's the baby?"        

"He's fine" mom said.

Harry stayed the whole time and went home with us. I went straight to my room to see my son, his the reason why I choose to live after Trevor left. I could feel Harry behind me. I carried my boy and snuggled him close to me.

"What's his name?" Harry ask. I look at him and I can see my son's eyes, my son's hair. He really looks like his father but I shouldn't tell him, I promised Trevor.

"I want to be alone" I manage to say

"Paige you're stronger than this" he said.

I know I am, I should be. I have a son who needs me but I don't know how. I'm tired of being strong, I don't know how to fix myself.

"I'm right here Paige, I won't leave"

"Well actually you should"

"I know I'm not in the position to say this but I think Trevor would be happy if I'll stay and take care of you, both"

"You don't know anything Harry, just leave. Please"

Trevor maybe dead but it doesn't mean I'll come running to Harry's arms. My son and I will live, I can do this alone. Its to hard to say this now but I have a feeling this will pass. I've encountered so many problems already, this maybe on top of the list but it doesn't mean I won't get through this.

AFTER ONE YEAR

My baby and I are here to visit my parents, he's just so spoiled. My mom always insist to bring my son here coz we don't see them often coz I'm busy at work, being the president now of Sun's and ofcourse taking care of my son.

"I'm so happy to see you both"mom greeted

"Yeah, this little guy here needs a break sometimes." My son is everything to me. He's grown beautifully, brown curly hair, bright blue eyes and he just takes my breath away everytime he smiles.

"I can't wait to show him to Susan" mom said.

I stop at the thought of that, Susan haven't seen my boy and I know even if I didn't tell her about him being Harry's she would know, since he's a complete duplicate of him. Panic run through me, I  don't know how she'll react.

"Later mom, I'm tired." I told her hoping she'll forget what she have in mind.

"Oh, too bad, but we'll just bring him at dinner at Susan's later."

"Dinner?"

"Yeah, you forgot? Its their anniversary."

Gosh, what if Harry's there? Its been a long time since I've seen him. Ofcourse he's all over the magazine and TV but we really haven't talk,what if he'll see my son? Could he notice him?

As we prepare to went over Susan's, I can't stop my hands from shaking, I'm freakin' nervous.

"You okay sweetheart?" mom asked.

"Yeah."

"You ready or do you want us to go first?" Maybe that's a good idea, maybe I'll just stay here. I don't think I can watch Eddie at their house..

"Yeah, you go first."