Loved You First (HARRY STYLES)

Part 24

Paige POV

I woke up the next day with Harry on my mind. The pain from last night still there, the love I have for him still strong. He said he has a lot of things to say and I wanted to know. As selfish as it sounds I want Harry, but I don't want to lose Trevor.

I went to their house hoping to see him but he already left. Susan was in the kitchen making coffee.

"You want a cup?" she offered

"I guess" I sat across her, my thoughts wandering.

"Last night was fun"

"Yeah" I said blankly.

"What's wrong sweetie? You look sad for someone who's to be wed tomorrow"

"Is it that obvious?"

"Well, I certainly don't look like you when I was about to be wed"

"Susan, you think what I'm doing is wrong?" I ask, she continue to sip from her cup.

"Its wrong to say this, but its not what I expect to feel. I thought getting married is like finding your happy ever after, but I'm not happy at all. I do love Trevor, but I don't know why, something's wrong, missing and its crazy coz I don't even know what that is. He's perfect, he's got everything a girl could ask for but I don't know Susan, I'm confuse"

"You're wedding's tomorrow, you need to make up your mind Paige. Marriage is not like hot food you can spit out when your tongue's burnt"

"The wedding will happen tomorrow" I say. Trevor needs me and I won't let him down.

"Can I tell you something? This is not to make you change your mind or to make you more confuse. I just thought you should know"she says, I nodded.

"Ever since you moved next door I know in my heart that you'll be a part of my family. When I saw how my boy looks at you, I know he has chosen. Forgive my son for being what he is Paige but God knows and even I know how much he loves you. Back then he keeps reminding himself that your his bestfriend coz your still young and he respects your parents so much. Then Trevor came, it breaks my heart seeing him act like its nothing, but for the first month Trevor and you were together I could see Harry hurt, devastated. Believe it or not he cried almost every night. He tried to get over it Paige, he played with the girls around him, to forget because you seem happy with Trevor. But when he found out about Trevor and that girl he was furious but I stop him, telling him its not his story to tell. I said that he should trust you coz I know sweetie your strong and you can handle yourself. I didn't know he planned something. When you two finally broke up, he should be relieved but not, because he know he's one of the reason behind your tears. There are so many times he tried to tell you but he was too scared, that you'll hate him and he'll lose you."

"I don't know what to say Susan, but Harry did what he did and he has all the time in the world to correct his mistakes"

"But you left, for New York. He wanted to stop you but he knows its your dream and he wants you to be happy. He tried to call you so many times though, but he stops himself. He always talk to me about you, asks me if Lorna said anything, I told him nothing coz I don't want my son to be hurt anymore. He's been struggling when you left Paige, he thinks less of himself. He said how can someone so smart and beautiful like you like him more than a friend. How can a girl with great ambition fall inlove with a baker, its funny when he calls himself that. Then One Direction came, he took it, work hard to be a part of it, so he'll deserve you. Harry loves you sweetheart, more than anything." I can see the pain in Susan's eyes after she told me everything. All of the things I heard increase my confusion. Harry and I should be together but fate has its ways.