Loved You First (HARRY STYLES)

Part 23

Paige POV

The day after tomorrow is my wedding. Everything's set, from reception, the guests and all. I thought planning a wedding would make you fidgety and enthusiastic but I wasn't. I do am hands on with the whole preparation though. Its the least I can do for Trevor. I've religiously believed in happy ever after, where you'll meet someone who would spin your world around, someone you can feel the zing. I've met mine but he's not much of a choice now. I don't want to hurt Trevor, he's been through a lot with his life. Someday, somehow I'll get over with this feelings I have for Harry and give my heart and soul to Trevor, not now but we'll get there.

I'm in Holmes, getting ready for my bridal shower. Silly coz I don't have a lot of girl friends, just Jen, my mom, Susan and a few officemates.

"Sweetheart" mom says as she went inside my room.

"Mom, sorry did I keep you guys waiting?"

"No, Jen's not yet here"

"Oh" I continue to apply makeup, Mom is standing behind looking at me in the mirror.

"Are sure about this Paige?"

"About what?" My parents were against this marriage, they said I'm too young and they're honest that they don't like Trevor that much, but just like what they always do, mom and dad supports my decision.

"We already talked about this mom"

"I know, I'm just worried. Marriage is not as easy as you think it is sweetie. Your dad and I went through a lot and I'm telling you its far from the movies"

"I don't know mom, but this seems to be the best thing to do" I say honestly.

"You can't get married just to run from something" Oh gosh, I didn't know I'm that obvious.

"Who said I'm running"

"Just saying, how's Harry?"

"His busy mom"

"Honestly Paige, I was really expecting you and Harry..."

"Mom, I'm marrying Trevor" I say interrupting her.

"Well, you know your dad and I are just here whenever you need us okay?"

"I know mom, thank you"

I need to enjoy the night, my last two nights as Paige Gomez.

"Here comes the bride, all dress in white" They all sing-along as I made my way downstairs.

"I'm not in white though" I giggled.

The party is amazing, I'm actually having fun. Its the first time in months I feel this happy.

"Thank God, no strippers" I say

"Who told you?"

"Oh no.." Jen shows me a blindfold and place it in my eyes.

"Enjoy the night Gomez"

"I can't believe you approve this mom"

"Oh sweetie, this would be fun" mom chirps.

Sexy music starts to play and I'm starting to get nervous in my seat.

"Are you sure about this mom?" I ask, didn't know my mom would be up for this idea.

"Shut up Paige, just enjoy.. Here he comes"Jen squeals behind me.

A Papa Smurf wearing the skimpiest red boxers greeted me when Jen removed my blindfold.

"Seriously?"

"Yeah baby, watch me" the guy purred while grinding against the pole. The girls were all laughing except Susan who mumbled "Jesus Christ". I've seen strip dancers before in movies but its a different encounter when they're infront of you. Papa Smurf continues to dance his way towards me and finally twerks, his ass comes to view.

"Spank me baby"

"No thank you" Gosh, this is making me sweat.

"C'mon Paige, spank him!" Jen yelled

"Spank him!"

"Spank him!"

"Spank him!" They all cheered.

"You'll pay for this Jen" I say as I hit the guys ass.

"Aww!" he gasped. This is disgusting.

"Well, I need my beauty rest now, I don't want dark circles in my eyes on my wedding" I say after another hour passed.

"Do you want to take Papa Smurf with you?" Jen said.

"Keep it Jen" I kissed everyone goodbye and went to my room.

I'm exhausted and tipsy but all of it gone when I saw Harry inside my room. Its been two months since what happened at Jen's. He looks miserable, his hair so long, his face unshaven. Dark circles were present in his eyes and I can tell he lose weight. What happen to you Harry? I ask myself. His eyes full of sadness, he didn't say a word. I touch his cheek and he flinched with the contact. I have so many things to tell him, that he is still here in my heart, that I may marry Trevor but I still belong to him. I admit its so wrong and it won't change a thing, but its what I feel.

"What are doing here?" I ask him, he remains silent.

"I'm tired Harry, just come back tomorrow" I turn my back against him before he could see how my words betray me. My heart screams for him, my heart wants Harry to fight for us.

"Its late, we can talk tomorrow"

Harry suddenly hugs me from the back, the warmth, the spark, the zing that I was looking for comes back to life. We belong together there's no doubt about that but everytime we try, something drives us apart.

"I'm sorry Paige, I'm sorry for being a coward, I'm sorry for messing things up, I'm sorry for everything" he says tightening his arms around me. Unwanted tears fall freely from my eyes. Harry sobs behind me, it breaks me to see him like this.

"I just wanted to see you. I have so many things to say but its too late now. I wish you happiness Paige" I turn to face him, wiping the tears from his cheeks. "What happened to us Harry?" I wanted to ask but as what he said its too late for that now. He kiss my head and disappeared.