Loved You First (HARRY STYLES)

Part 36

Harry POV

"Good morning guys"

"Someone woke up on the right side of the bed today" mom said as I kiss her cheek. Dad is reading the news while mom feeds Anne. Its eight in the morning  and I'm not usually up this early but I'm feeling energized, elated.

"No reason for me to be grumpy I guess"

"Hello little Annie, you remember me right?" I'm actually getting a hang of playing big brother.

"I thought you don't like kids Harry?" dad ask.

"Well lately I'm quite getting fond of a few"

"Maybe, its time for you to have your own"

"Not that dad, maybe.. but not anytime soon"

"I guess it will be sooner than you think" mom blurted.

"And what exactly do you mean?"

"Just saying hon. Do you mind taking Anne outside while I clean the house?"

"Sure"

I bring Anne outside to play, my dad's right I don't get along with kids well but Anne and Eddie seems to be the exemption.

Being a father sounds like a huge responsibility and I don't think I'm ready for it yet especially I haven't found a suitable mother but thats not really something I'm planning or thinking about as of the moment.

"Harry, I thought you already left" Lorna said. She's watering her plants when we approached her. I'm actually expecting to see Eddie but I guess he's still asleep.

"I'll leave tomorrow"

"Its good to hear you've got to spend time here. You know Susan always complains of how busy you are. Gemma hardly visit that's why your mom gets you know emotional. You know how she is"

"Exactly and that makes the two of you"

"Oh, yes and that. I always call Paige to bring Eddie here but she always tells me she's busy with work. You all keep on saying that"

"How is she?" I ask out of nowhere. Lorna stop to look at me but continued to what she's doing.

"She's okay I think. I mean its been a year since Trevor left us, she doesn't talk about it anymore"

"What exactly happen to Trevor Lorna?"

"Car accident, the police said the driver of the truck was drunk and Trevor's car was fast and you know, stuff like that but Paige believes Trevor did it because of her"

"Why?"

"I'm sorry if I'm intruding" I say. Susan place her waterpot in the corner and sighed.

"I'll get some tea, you wait here"

I sit in their porch waiting for Lorna to come back. Its been a question on my mind on what really happen to Trevor.

She went back with a tray in her hands and place it in the the wooden table.

"Trevor didn't find a heart donor for Paige" she said while pouring tea into the cup.

"Donor?" I ask, I know Paige is sick but didn't know to this extent.

"She needs a heart transplant to survive her pregnancy but Trevor didn't find any. Paige thinks Trevor did the accident. That it was his plan to hit that truck and die that day so he could give Paige his heart"

"Who would do something like that? I mean its insane"

"Trevor did or I don't know. Accident or not either way helped Paige to live"

If its true, what Trevor did is remarkable. I don't know what to say. I'm even surprise Paige has undergone all this.

"Harry this one is for you" Lorna handed me an envelope.

"What this?"

"I don't know what that is but the police found it inside Trevor's car after the accident. It has your name in it"

"Why didn't you give it to me during the funeral?"

"The police gave it to me a month after the accident and I don't see you so often that's why"

"I'm sorry Lorna" I say, I know I sounded harsh but what if what's inside is important or should be dealt with right away but past is past.

"Its okay, I understand"

I went straight to my room after I give Anne to mom. A quiet place is what I need to read whatever's inside this envelope. My hands are shaking as I start to unfold the piece of paper inside.

Styles,
I'm not sure why I'm writing this to you but I'll just finish this since I already started.
The moment you called Paige on the stairs when we were talking that's the time I started to hate you. She always listens to you and you being a prick you're always around. Its annoying when she keeps on talking about you when we're together. I hate that she's mine but her heart is yours.
You finally pulled it off when you caught me cheating, I don't know why I'm telling you this but I actually am greatful with what you did coz if you didn't I wouldn't be fixed. For years I tried to be better for her, to deserve Paige. I love her Styles, more than anything but seeing you on our wedding makes me doubt that coz right then I knew that you love her more. You let her go you made her mine and another thank you for that. You thought it would make her happy, I tried though but her eyes don't lit up like it does when she's with you. Even if she's my wife her heart remain yours.
Its been so hard to compete with you coz no matter what I do I 'm no match. I despise you, sometimes I wish we could trade places.
Then we found out about her heart problem. God knows I tried to find a donor but again I failed but if you're reading this then that wouldn't be a problem coz you'll have mine to give, don't worry it belongs to her from the start. But there is something that I think you deserve to know, the baby's not mine Styles and I believe we both know who the father is.
I'll die happy knowing she's gonna be okay. Let my heart give you both a second chance to be happy, as a family. I love her but you loved her first.

Trevor