The Break Up Plan (FINISHED)

Plan #36: Angel

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Tahimik lang ako habang si Jean naman ay nagmamaheno at tinatahak ang Skyway papunta sa matagal ko nang hindi nakita na ama. Hindi ko pa rin alam ang maaring kahitnan ng tagpong ito kaya naman ay maraming bagay na bigla na lang napasok sa aking isipan. I just can’t stop thinking about them.

There was soft buzzing sound from the car as it jerk gently toward the highway the was the only sound that lingers in between me and Jean. Occasionaly, she would face the side mirror and look at me but then I was too busy thinking about things as if I was so lost deep into my thought within me.

“Parang ang lalim ata ng iniisip mo bes ah,” Jean said breaking the silence between us.

I turned my head and looked at her, then I smiled wryly when she glanced at me.

“Nothing significant, it’s just…” I trailed off then I shrugged. “Its just this feeling is unusual and its like I’m meeting a man whom had never been a part of my life. My father is nearly like a stranger to me now that I couldn’t think of anything to say when got to see him again. Thoughts inside is jostling and colliding with each other. I don’t know.” I released a deep sigh.

“Its okay. Kinakabahan ka lang. Just relax at huminga ka lang ng malalim,” sabi niya habang busy ito sa pagmamaneho.

Sinunod ko ang kanyang payo. I relxed myself then I breathe deeply – inhale, exhale. Jean is right, somehow it made me feel better even just a little bit. Hindi ko na namalayan na nakarating na pala kami sa aming paroruonan ng huminto ang kotse at pinatay ni Jean ang makina tsaka ito tumingin sa akin.

“At last, we’re here,” Jean announce as looked at me while smiling. I nod as I sign of my response togther with an approving look.

I cleared my thoughts before I climbed out from the car. Parang anytime ay mayroong lalabas na uwak mula sa aking dibdib sa sobrang bilis ng pagtibok nito dahil sa kabang bumabalot sa buong pagkatao ko.

Pagkalabas ko ng kotse ay agad na tumambad sa akin ang magandang pagka-arkitekto ng façade ng bahay. For a long time ay ngayon ko lang na-appreciate na ang husay pala ng pagkakagawa at pagkakadesinyo sa bahay na dati kong tinirhan, kung saan ako lumaki. Siguro kasi mula ng maranasan ko ang realidad ng buhay ay doon ko simulang ma-appreciate ang mga maliit pati na rin ang malalaking mga bagay. Ang kaso nga lang hindi lahat ng tao grateful sa mga maliliit na blessings. Why is it so hard for people to be grateful for the small things and small efforts? Hindi ko alam. Pero sana kahit na maliit na effort lang ang ginawa ko para makausap si Papa ay ma-appreciate niya ‘to at hindi sana humantong sa bagay na hindi ko inaasahan sa mula naming pagkikita.

The wind blows hard as the branches and leaves of the big trees surrounding the mansion dance to the melody of nature. I felt the wind whipping gently as it passed my face. I hear the bird’s chirpping. While looking around this place I relaized that this place hasn’t change even a bit. There were trees around as if this mansion in front of me is in the middle of a forest, but it wasn’t. Madami lang talagang puno sa paligid kaya nagmumukhang gubat ito. I remember my Mom loves trees. Ang pagkakaalam ko ay pinili talaga nila ‘tong place nila Mama at Papa dahill mas malapit daw ito sa kalikasan. My mom loves trees and the nature that much. No wonder she was once an environmentalist when she and my father met for the first time. Paano ko nalaman ‘yon? Kuwento sa akin ni Mama no’ng buhay pa siya. It’s been a long years pero parang sariwa pa rin ang alaala ni mama sa loob ng aking isipan.