The Beast Inside Me

What do you want?

     " Hi Mara " Lance said, believe me he was the last person I ever wanted to see. My blood was practically boiling, I couldn't hide my rage, more than anything in the world I wanted to beat the hell out of him. " WHAT DO YOU WANT?! " I asked him as I clenched my fists so hard I heard my knuckles crack, " we need to talk " he said with a really sad look on his face., " I don't wanna talk to you?! " I yelled at him, Lance looked down and then looked up at me again and said with a smile, " wasn't asking " . I felt a sudden chill for some reason, then the next thing I knew Lance was behind me, I had no idea how fast he got there. I was still trying to wrap my mind around it but then Lance placed his hand firmly on my mouth and held on to me, I tried to fight him off, I just remembered some of the training I had with Jullian so I elbowed him hard in the chest. He staggered a bit, " I just wanna talk " Lance said as he got a little angry, " come with me " he said as he softly grabbed my arm. He gestured for me to follow him but I was already so pissed so with all my strength I kicked him hard where the sun doesn't shine. Lance let out a load moan, he held on to his tenders for a while until he looked up at me, the look on his face really scared me, I had never seen Lance so angry in my life before, I could see the vein on his forehead about to pop out. " I said I just wanted to talk, why did you have to make this so hard for yourself? " Lance asked me, then with unimaginable strength, Lance punched me hard in the head knocking me out completely.
     I woke up tied to a tree somewhere in the forest. The first person I saw was Lance standing right in front of me, " now can we talk? " he asked, I suddenly remembered all that had happened. " What do you want?! I don't want to talk to you okay?! Just leave me alone. I can't believe you set me up like that, to think I actually trusted you, I can't believe you were actually his kid! All this time you pretended like you loved me, it was all a lie, your plan all along was to lead me to my death, I hate you! Get out! " I yelled, I noticed I was crying. Lance came closer to me and cleaned my tears and then out of nowhere he attacked me with a long and passionate kiss. I really wanted this to stop but I was tied up vertically and my hands and legs weren't free at all so I couldn't do anything about it. Lance still held on to the kiss for close to three minutes, I was getting really sick of it so I bit his lower lip until it drew blood. He finally stopped, he put his arm on the tree and looked me in the eye, " Mara, no matter what you do or what you say, I love you, and I always will " Lance said, his words melted into my heart. I don't know, I think it's some kind of superpower, even since we were dating, no matter what he did to piss me off, no matter how bad it was, he always found a way to get to me. I didn't know how to respond to it, I just stared at him, " Mara, I love you, now tell me, why would I want to kill you? " he asked, I was unable to respond. " Mara. I've been wanting to talk to you for a while now, to explain to you what's going on, I think I can now. Yeah, I'm his son, he's my dad, at least that's what we call each other. When I was a little boy, my mom and dad died in a car accident, I was in the car too but I was lucky to survive. I went into the forest without a clue of where I was going to, I was hungry, injured, confused and lost. I thought it was all over for me but then someone found me, he found me, he took me in and took care of me. I was scared of what he looked like but I didn't care, I loved him for taking care of me. You remember that old case of the missing boy in Dreamland years ago? Well that was me, my actual name was Harris but he gave me this name, Lance. I was never found, nobody ever knew what happened to me till date, I abandoned that life behind me and moved on to a new life with him as my dad. I know you're probably wondering if I missed my parents at all, but no I didn't, and sometimes I'm actually happy they died, my dad molested me every night, I would cry and cry but my mom wouldn't do anything about it, she abused me too. My life sucked, outside we pretended like a happy family but the truth really was bitter. In all my life nobody ever cared for me, but he came, and treated me that way, how do you think I would feel? I was willing to follow him till the end of the world, I would do anything he asked me to, I loved him and a part of me still does. One day, not long after I turned ten, he did something to me, he said he wanted to try something on me, and since that day I became that beast. The whole change might have been hard on me but I got used to it, I became his weapon, he used me to get whatever he wanted. When he used to go out killing other innocent creatures I was there, I even helped out too, I was willing to help him out in any way, seeing him happy was the best feeling in the world to me. It took me a while to realize all I had actually been doing was actually wrong, I had killed and hurt so many innocent lives  and I thought I was doing the right thing, he lied to me all this time and that was when I finally started to rebel against him. First I begged him to stop but he wouldn't listen, so I stopped listening to him and started doing things on my own. And you know the interesting thing? I wouldn't have done all this without you, when you came into my life my world changed, I started seeing things differently, you inspired me to change my ways Mara. Remember those times I ignored you? Ever wondered why? I did that for your safety, when I found out you could see those people I knew you were different and if I kept on seeing you they would probably kill you, I had to let go of you because of how much I loved you. And when he captured you, who do you think saved you? Now Mara tell me, have I ever meant any harm to you? No, and yet you accuse me of wanting you dead? If I wanted you dead I would have killed you a long time ago. I want you to know that I'm on your side Mara, and I always will be, I'm not a bad person Mara, maybe I was but I'm not, I want to help you more than anything in the world. Do you have any idea how hard it was to steal you that crystal from my dad? I lost my title as son because of you, do you have any idea how that hurt? I've been through all this for you and yet you treat me this way ".
     By the time he was done I was lost for words, I can't explain how I felt at that moment. Lance was actually trying to help all this time, I felt terrible for accusing him, talking to him that way and even hitting him. I couldn't even look him in the face, I really wanted to just crawl into a cave and never come out. Guilt engulfed me, I managed to say " I'm sorry " before breaking down in tears. He once again cleaned my tears, he took out a knife and cut me free, " well Mara, you said you didn't want to talk to me, so I'll leave " he said as he left quickly. I called after him but he didn't answer, he was already gone. His words felt like a thousand needles piercing my flesh at once, I felt really bad for him, I wanted to give him a hug but he was gone. I sat on branch of the tree for a few minutes before I finally decided to go home.
     I was staying at my mom's place, the girls were also staying there. Usually I tell the girls everything but this just didn't seem like something I should say, I told them all about the training but left out the Lance part. I managed to get some sleep, I woke up about 4 : 00 am because I was thirsty, but what I saw shocked me. I saw Sophie climbing back into the room from the window, Sophie never did that and also another alarming thing was how rough she looked. " What's going on? " I asked her as I rubbed my eyes, her reaction seemed like my voice was the last thing she wanted to hear, she was so scared. " Oh, Mara, you're up? ".