perfectly wrong

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"So what did you want to talk about?" the blonde girl asks, taking a seat opposite her brother.

Newt found it difficult to speak to Sonya, his younger sister on the phone because he couldn't make it into words of how he felt about his situation with Thomas. It was if his thoughts were whirling him into a vortex, making him struggle to speak. Lucky for him, his sister knew him well enough to know what was going on, so she paid him a visit.

"I just... don't know what to do. It's like I'm stuck all over again." he sighs in frustration, his hands gripping on strands of his hair.

He just felt soo angry for himself. He once again fell into Thomas' charming trap. He knew that he wasn't in the wrong and yet, the brunette made him feel like he was. Yes, he was the one that ended the relationship but he was soo sick and tired being treated like he wasn't enough. No matter how hard he tried, Thomas wasn't fully satisfied with Newt and he hated that feeling, it made him feel worthless.

"When was the last time you saw him?"

"Couple of days ago. I texted him to meet me." and instantly, he hears a groan from the girl.

"Newt, come on! Are you serious? You know seeing him is just going to fill you with anger. And let me guess, you guys got into a heated argument and Minho and Teresa had to break it up?" she questions and he answers with a nod, making Sonya sigh heavily.

She and Teresa are very alike. They are very protective over their brothers; if anyone dares to hurt them, they'll come at you with a bat. So she understood that whatever Newt's feeling, Thomas must be feeling the same. Therefore, she decided to take a different approach to deal with this because her brother wasn't the only one going through this confusion. She knew that Teresa was probably dealing with Thomas' end of things, which was probably a lot more chaotic than this.

"Regardless, I think you should speak to him."

"You can't be serious. You literally had a go at me for meeting with him and now you say this?"

"I know, I know. But I'm not talking about texting, calling or facing him. Remember when you guys used to send notes to one another?"

Finally, an actual thought of his relationship with Thomas brings a genuine smile to his face. The little notes that the brunette would leave at the edge of his pillow to read when he woke up were one of the best things that anyone had ever done for him. Thomas was soo sweet, soo kind to him but sooner or later, that feeling faded away and with it, so did the notes.

"Yeah... it was more Thomas' thing than mine."

"Look bro, I know you want him back. It's very obvious. So maybe, try this out and hopefully you could begin to mend the friendship between you two?" she suggests, passing him a pen and a notebook.

The blonde knew that this could be a horrible idea and could damage their relationship even more but now, Newt didn't have a care in the world. Thomas hurt him, but he knew that he hurt the brunette as well. It had become too hard for him to leave him again so if he must, he would do anything to fix this because the blonde finally realised: he never wanted to let Thomas go.

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i feel like that last paragraph is a bit of a mess but hopefully, it kinda makes sense? i don't know :/

i will admit, it was really hard to write at the beginning but now everything feels soo easy, like i can't stop typing. so for those who are struggling to write right now, just try something, anything. it doesn't have to be good but it will help you gradually get back into the flow.

i love every single person here and you guys are amazing, wonderful, fabulous and you deserve all the love in the universe <33

Faiza :)