Always Doesn't Mean Forever: Book 2 (Severus Snape/student)

Chapter 17: A Try At Forever Your's

   Alex's P.O.V.

     

      Some nightmares never did make much sense to me. There were the nightmares that were memories, visiting my mind even when it's at rest, there were nightmares from fear of the inevitable, nightmares from fear of the unknown, then there were the nightmares that made no sense... the nightmares of the ones I love betraying me. Betraying everyone. I guess it's something that comes with years of trust issues, years of never trusting anyone. Maybe it's because actually trusting someone enough to put my life in their hands is so foreign to me. I never even trusted my supposed father that much. How could I? He nearly killed me himself on multiple occasions.

        No matter the reasoning for these wretched dreams, they were there. Haunting me. Making me want to throw whatever progress I've made with trusting people to the wind and going back to be on my own again. But I couldn't do that to the people I loved. Not again. For sometimes I must remind myself I can't let my fear hold me back, break my promises, and hender my progress. So I once again push the thoughts and worries aside.

        "Alex?" I was woken by an excited sounding Dad and a knock at my door. I groaned and turned over on my side with my back facing the door.

        "Five..more minutes.." I heard him chuckle.

        "Alex it's Chistmas. Get your lazy butt up." I groaned again and rolled back over on my back, opening my eyes slowly.

        "I'm up."  Dad lowered his voice before he spoke again.

        "A small package and letter arrived this morning. I got to it before Tonks so don't worry. It's on your desk. I'll give you a few minutes." With that I heard him walk away, Merlin I was so thankful for Dad. I love him. I climbed out of bed and went over to my deak. There sat a very small black box and a letter. I opened the letter first. There on the front on the letter as I pulled it out was a note.

        "I knew you'd probably open the letter first so put it down and open the box." 

        I smiled at his note. He knew me so well. I picked up the small black box and opened it slowly. Inside was perhaps the most beautiful ring I had ever seen. I couldn't help but gasp as my eyes trailed over the silver band that led up to small diamonds that encircled a green emerald that lay in the middle of the stunning ring. It was so beautiful. Shakily I sat down the ring, still in it's box and picked up the letter. Unfolding it, I looked at Severus's familiar writing and started to read.

        "My love,

                Last Christmas I presented you with my mother's necklace. Symbolizing as promise that I intended to keep, and have. A year later as a result of that promise I have all I could ever ask for. Your love. This year I present you with a ring. Yet another promise. I picked it out months ago. I saw it in the window at a store and immediately thought of you. This promise, at least to me, is greater then the last for this is a promise of a try at eternity. A try at a future. A try at forever. I cannot simply state to you that I promise to be with you forever, well I could, but I'm no liar. Not to you. For alas I do not know of my future or if there even will be one. Though I can promise you I will try. I will try to make our future together. I will try to make our dreams come true. I hope that is enough for now. Merry Chritmas, I love you.

                                                                                                                   A try at Forever your's,