Always Doesn't Mean Forever: Book 2 (Severus Snape/student)

Chapter 3: Scars

Alex's P.O.V.

Fair warning things um.... escalate a bit.....

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   Dinner flew by. I didn't know whether to be excited or nervous. I listened tot he sorting hat as he sorted first years. We got a few new people. Nothing special though. Then my grandfather gave a short speech and announced something I wasn't expecting. Severus as no longer teaching potions! He was now the new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher. After last year I'm begining to believe the job is jinxed or something, but I was happy for him. Everyone knows how much he loves DADA. Still i couldn't imagine potions without him. It was.... unnatural. After eating dinner and talking to Marissa a little everyone began to file out of the great hall. My heart lept in my chest as I made my way to the dungeons and to Severus' quarters. As I came to the wall my nerves grew worse. I didn't know why though. i had done this a million times before. This was different though. This is the first time in nine weeks that it would just be him and I alone. Butterflys errupted in my stomach. Was he serious about this detention. Surely he wouldn't ask me to his quarters if he were. But I don't know. i mean I had been here before. Maybe he thought nothing of it. I paced back and forth for a couple of minutes thinking about all the possibilities. What would he say? We hadn't had a conversation since school let out last term. What would I say? Do we pick up where things left off, or is it going to be one of those awkward things people do? "Would you stop pacing?" I jumped at the sound of his voice. i hadn't even realized the wall had opened.

      "Sorry Professor." Was that right. Should I have called him Severus? He quirked an eyebrow at me. He was so hard to read.

      "Well are you waiting for a formal invitation Ms. Dumbledore or do you just wish to stand there?" I stared at him for a long moment. Was he acting or was he serious. Well, i knew one thing for sure. He'd make a killing in a poker game. I walked forward and through the wall. I looked to him and he was watching as the hole shut. Then out of nowhere he turned to me quickly and grabbed my face in his hands. He moved and crashed his lips to mine. It wasn't soft like normal. It was a bit rough actually, but not in a bad way. The kiss was full of longing. When he licked my bottom lip I didn't waste a second. His tongue darted in my mouth and explored. like it had been nine years instead of nine weeks. At times it felt that way. I tangled my hands in his soft hair. It always surprised me how it felt. Despite the way it looked it wasn't the slightest bit greasy it was nice. He continued the kiss without breaking. I felt as if I would melt right then and there. My knees were wobbling and I leaned into him. He held me up perfectly. His fingers ran through my hair and I shuttered. His other hand was at the small of my back. i leaned closer into him if that was even possible and he pulled me tight to him, like he never wanted to let go. The feeling warmed my heart. After several more minutes the kiss finally slowed and ultimatly ended. I tried desperaltly to catch my breath His arms wrapped around me and I wrapped mine around his neck.

      "Well, I take it....that you....missed me." I said panting.

      "More than you know." He whispered.

      "I think I know exactly."

    Without warning he picked me up in his arms and carried me to the couch he sat down and I was on his lap. I looked at him for a long moment. Studying his every feature. Taking in his amazing eyes. Eyes that hold so much. Then his nose. Then his lips. Merlin his lips. They were perfect. Without thinking I leaned forward and grabbed a hold of his bottom one genlty with my teeth giving it a small tug. I felt him shudder. Guess he likes that. I kissed the side of his mouth. Then his jaw. Then again and again until I was at his neck. When I got to the base of it I sucked a little. His fingers dug into my sides. Like he was trying desperatly to control himself, but was losing. He sucked in a shallow breath. Then somehow in one swift move I was lying down and he was on top of me. He began to trail kisses along my jaw and down my neck, not missing a beat. I shook like a leaf as his hand went under my shirt and he traced small circles on my stomach with his thumb. I let out a low moan and I felt him smirk against my neck. Then slowly, so slowly his hand trailed down. When he got to the waist of my pants he brushed his fingers along the line of them. Teasing me. Well, two could play at that game. I reached up and one by one i unbottoned his top robe. He didn't look up at me. When I was done I opened it and pulled it down his arms. He helped me a bit by shrugging the rest off. Then I began on his udershirt. Merlin how did he dress like this every day so many buttons. I managed to undo them and pull the shirt off of him. When i did i could do nothing, but stare. He was muscular, but not to much. Defined but subtly. His arm muscles were strong and his core hard, but not a full six pack. He was perfect. His skin was pale. Equally to that of mine. I ran my hands down his chest. Then back up to his shouldrs and to his back. Finally he looked up at me.

      "Are you alright." I nodded. Not being able to quite find my voice. Then he bagan to take off my robes. He was down to my last undershirt when he looked up to me again. I nodded. Knowing what he meant. He unbottoned the shirt and when he pulled it off of me and discarded it to the floor. Then for the second time tonight he picked me up in his arms. As he stood i wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waste. He began to walk kissing me at the same time. i heard a door open then as we walked a little further he kicked it shut. Gently he laid me down on his bed remaining on top of me. The silk sheets felt amazing on my skin. I looked up at him amd and bit my bottom lip nervously he gave a small but geniune smile and leaned down once again to kiss my lips. He was gentle taking his time. Then he kissed the corner of my mouth and down to my jaw then to my neck. He trailed small kisses down my body. I shivered when he reached my pants and I felt his hands on the botton. He slowly pulled them off and tossed them to the floor. I laid before him in just my underwear. Suddenly I became very self conscious. Of my body and of my scars. I covered myself with my hands and Severus looked at me confused. "What is it?" he asked concerened. I shook my head, but it didn't convince him. He slid up the bed until his head was level with mine. I felt Severus' hand on my cheek turning me to face him. It was then I saw how worried he really was. "Is this too much?" I shook my head again and turned over on my side away from him. I didn't want hin to see how dumb I was being. I felt his arms wrap around me.  Then he leaned close until his head was resting in the crook of my neck. "You know your beatiful right?" I didn't answer. I didn't know what to say to him. I didn't want him to think I was some stupid little kid. "We don't have to do this. I didn't mean to pressure you. I....I'm.....sorry." I felt bad.

     "Its not that. You didn't. I just....."

     "Its your scars isn't it?" I nodded. "I want you to see something." I turned back to him.  He held up his arm. For the first time I noticed his mark. The dark mark.

     "Thats different."

     "No it isn't. I chose to take this mark.  When I was young and stupid. I took it because of the dark times I was in. Like you." This was the first time I had seen him like this. When he showed everything.  I thought about his words he was right.  We both did stupid things at one time. "We don't have to do this tonight. Not until your comfortable. But I want you to know your beautiful, and your scars are a part of that. it shows everthing you've been through and how much stronger you've become." I laid my head on his chest, and he pulled me close.

     "Could we just lay like this?" He nodded as he leaned down to give me a small peck on the lips.

     "I love you."

     "I love you too." We layed in silence just taking one another in. It was the best night of my life.