Welcome to my world. It's quite chaotic here but also beautiful and gentle. I hope you stay awhile.
Location: U.S
Gender: F
Age: 22
Grade: college grad
MBTI: INFP
Major: psychology
Likes: furry animals, movies, sweet cream
Dislikes: crowds, insects...
My flight departed at 8:30 a.m from my hometown to my mother's city. Mom moved there last summer to separate herself from Daddy. Even though they only recently separated, they've been fighting for years, and it had taken a toll on everyone's mental health. Life is now less stressful for both of them, but since my sister lives with Mom 11/12 months and I live in a college dorm 8/12 months, Daddy doesn't see us very often, which undoubtedly affects him. Daddy says our dog is his anchor.
As my plane neared peak elevation, the city below shrank and flattened:
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Although I'd seen the city from the sky many times before, the sight still sent my mind racing. We as individuals are so tiny. Days prior, I binge-watched videos about the lives of insects such as blue orchard bees and jumping spiders and I began to wonder if there was a bigger civilization that studies us as closely as we study insects—or bacteria. What if, to a much bigger species, we are what a group of bacteria on the bottom of the leg of a chair is to us? Think about how outer space would appear if you zoomed out really far... Wouldn't it look like what some imagine the entire microscopic world to look like? Guys, what if we are analogous to atoms?
Yes, I had an existential crisis on the plane, but I think I needed to experience that. Once again, I remembered that I am merely one of countless specks trying to survive and thrive. This grounded me. Suddenly, my encounter with that rude driving examiner seemed less significant, and I was able to accept what happened and move on. Perhaps, to ease much of my anxiety, I should approach my worries from a further perspective.
