My Journal

Money, Money, Money

August 14, 2019

- It's officially been a week since I checked my ex's and his girlfriend's social media, and it hasn't been easy. My boyfriend is proud of me, but he knows that I've been struggling with the urges. He suggested that, if this doesn't get any easier by the time I arrive on campus in two weeks, I should talk to my therapist again. I agreed. But it does get a little easier each day, and I'm sure I'll break my addiction completely in six months.

- I'm worried about my financial aid for college. I recently submitted an appeal for more aid to my financial advisor, and he will update me on the 16th, which is in two days. Waiting is torturous. I am hoping that if I am granted more aid, it's in grants, not loans. Everyone knows that student debt is what prevents most Americans from obtaining financial freedom, and I don't want to be like most Americans. Nobody does.

- I've also been stressed about buying supplies for college. I'm a rising sophomore, so I can reuse most of my necessities from last year, but last year I had a roommate, and we shared a few necessities of hers. This year I'm living alone, so I need to buy the things that she previously shared plus new things. Thank God I've already purchased a microwave and mini-fridge (which will greet me in my dorm when I arrive), but I still need to buy a mini-vacuum, a full-body mirror, some curtains, a curtain rack, an umbrella, some luggage, and some clothes. God, shopping for clothes stresses me out much more than it should. I've been choosing clothes on the H&M app for three days. I'm so indecisive. I plan to buy clothes that are comfortable but also flattering and sophisticated. I researched what clothing flatters my body type and compliments my skin tone and used what I've learned to choose my clothes wisely. Despite what some may say, appearances matter, folks.