Bangtan's Release || BTS x Reader

Solitary release

(Fluffy smut or smutty fluff? You decide. In other words, there's a tiny bit of smut that can't really be classified as 18+ because it's too innocent compared to what you guys have already read in this book lol. I wanted this chapter to be "classy", so there is no mature language as such. It's all about feelings and emotions today. But as usual, if you don't like it, exit left lol.)

After the party at the BlackPink dorm

Ji-Soo was back in his apartment. The silence was deafening. He removed his shoes and put slippers on before heading into the kitchen. He made his way to the water dispenser and selected lukewarm water. As he filled his cup with the liquid, he put it down on the counter and sat at one of the bar stools. He removed his cufflinks and folded his sleeves back, exposing his toned forearms.  He was resting on his elbows, eyes closed, drinking his water.

He made his way to the living room. He was in a daze. He sat on the sofa and let his mind drift back to tonight's events. Lights dimmed to the lowest, he started to replay the scene in his head. 

JI-SOO'S POV

"I could see Na-Ri taking me by the hand, leading me to the empty bedroom. My heart never beat so fast. Just the fact that she initiated that contact drove me crazy. When I'm around her, I have to control my simplest desires. It's not about sexual contact, but just being able to brush my fingers on her skin gives me this sense of belonging, that everything will be ok in the end. 

I didn't want her to feel compelled to kiss me if she didn't want to. I could never live with myself. I respect her too much for that. Once we were finally on our own, I almost forgot how to breathe. She was so close... My mind was racing knowing the reason why we were there. I had dreamt of it so many times, never expecting for it to actually happen. 

When she finally kissed me, it was like fireworks went off in my heart, millions of butterflies furiously taking hold of my stomach. Time did not matter anymore, space became an abstract concept. It was just me and her. It felt like a fire had been ignited in my chest. Is that what they call baptism by fire? If it is, I'm willing.

It was not my first time with a woman, but the way she took the lead made me want her to be my teacher. I wanted her to show me all the things I didn't know about her. I wanted her to show me how to love her, how to worship her, how to cherish her. Anywhere her hands touched me had this burning sensation. No amount of water would have been able to quench this flame within me.

I tried my hardest not to cross the line, not to succumb to my primal instincts. I was praying to a god I wasn't sure existed to give me strength, the strength to resist the temptation to make her mine there and then. I almost lost that fight, if it was not for us being interrupted. If our time was not up, I now know, I would have marked every inch of her body as mine."

End of POV

Ji-Soo, although a handsome man, had not touched a woman in months. He was of the principle that if he was not in a relationship, he would not indulge in one night stands and rather wait for his next relationship. This is how he always stayed above any scandals in the film industry. Living this way was no small feat, especially in this industry where women would literally throw themselves at him, but he found it to be much less burdensome than having to deal with the aftermath of sleeping around.

However, his interaction with Na-Ri earlier this night almost pushed him over the edge. His resolve to keep to himself almost crumbled, but if it was for her, he had no problems with it. He brought his fingers to his lips, remembering how she tasted them in ways only she knows.