Peru
October 2016
Bea is now checking a patient who has typhoid fever. When you really want to see Bea and her angelic features, you need to see Bea being sweet to her patients.
Her heart will be the heaviest organ she could ever carry right now. Day 2 in Peru and all she could ever feel is sadness, hindi nga lang siya sure if its because of the health condition of the people in this area or because she misses the people she ghosted.
"Doc De Leon, Doctor Villegas is already here. You can go eat and rest for a few hours" The nurse said with the worry in her voice and face,
"I'm okay, Nurse Cath!"
"Doc, you need to eat." Nurse Cathleen is a constant company of Bea when she's on a mission.
Bea just smiled and the nurse stop nagging her.
After a few more hours, she is checking a another patient's record until her stomach aches for food.
"I told you, you need to eat" Cathleen is now rolling her eyes.
She left the desk and go straight to the quarters. She gets a sandwich and a coffee in the table.
"This taste like shit." She whispered.
"Ikaw ba naman mag boyfriend ng Chef, aba'y natural masasanay ka sa masarap" Zel is now getting up from sleep.
"You know that I understand what you are saying right?"
"Yep. I talked slowly for you to understand"
Bea rolled her eyes and the tears she's holding back for the last 48 hours starts to fall down.
Zel gets something from her paperbag. It's food. Chinese food she ordered in the nearest market.
"Eat this. Its much better to cry when you're full" Bea did what her best friend say, she eats the Chinese rice and dumplings while crying.
"You know you can always go back anytime right?" Zel reminded her.
"Zel, it's my problem. I've been here for 48 hours and all I think about is going back there and telling him that for the first time, I regret ghosting the people around me including him."
"Eh why are you still here?" Zel asked while nakapamewang sa may pinto.
"You know that I'm always scared. Last night, I realized that I am more clingy than him. Fuck that, Zel! I am never clingy to anyone. You know that. You know that I hate to be attached and to be so in love. One fucking week and I'm already like this."
"Maybe you should try to stop limiting yourself, Beatriz" She said comforting her friend.
"You deserve to be happy and the people you love deserves your presence. Of course, it will not always raninbows and butterflies but love will always be home. One day, you'll realize that you, ghosting everyone will make you homeless" Zel added
and Bea cries until she falls asleep.
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Zel is now on the phone, Bea's starting to stand pero Zel told her to wait and humarang ito sa bunk bed nila
"Yes, Brien! Take care too! I love you and see you soon!" Zel ended the call and put down her phone.
"Sleep more! I told the nurses I'll get your second shift!" Zel said
"No! I'll work now. I rested already"
"No, Isabel Beatriz! You just took a 45 minute nap"
"I'm fine, Zel! If I stay here I'll just get sad then I'll cry and eat all the Chinese food that you are hiding here" Bea said na nagpapaawa.
"Okay fine. Just eat on time, Beatriz! I feel like you're suffering for malnutrition ."
"Shut up! I am not"
and the doctors went to the Emergency Room
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While on duty, Bea's phone vibrated. It's Loel. She answered her phone.
"Kuya, I'm on duty"
"Just wanna hear your voice for the last time, angel" Thirdy said sounding so drunk.
She's so speechless and she did not know what to feel. She ended the call and there are more tears this time.
Sometimes we feel like people who left will recover fast but in reality they'll be the one to be haunted by the past forever.
Love still taste so bitter and you will be the cook, you have the power to add a little sugar, a little spice depending on how you want it.
I just hope you won't be tired cooking and experimenting until you get the perfect taste.
