I'm Not Ready

Chapter 14.

"Sarah, why haven't you gone to bed yet?" Ryan appeared in the kitchen.

"Well, I'm hungry and..."

"Have you eaten your dinner?" Ryan asked, concerned.

I shook my head slowly.

Sighing, he went to one of the cupboards and took put a packet of seeds- wait, seeds?!

He poured them in a bowl and mixed it with honey. "I know it looks weird," he told me," but this. This is delicious."

Once he was satisfied, he placed the bowl in the microwave and set it to 5 minutes.

It was time.

It was time for the questions.

_ _ _

He took the bowl out and placed it on the Coffee table.

"Anything else you would like to tell me?" He asked as he took a seat on the sofa.

Munching on the popcorn halfway, I froze.

What does he mean?

Just shake your head...

I shook my head. But he asked ,"like anything with Ricky?"

Oh shit.

After all these while I haven't told him about Ricky. Nothing.

Then, there was this last hope in me.

Did he look for me?

That question blurted out of me before I could think.

"Yes."

"What did he say?" I asked eagerly.

"Well, he said he wanted to apologise for whatever he did wrong and if you would go out with him, he'll give you half the money, or something."

"That son of a bitch!" I flared up.

"Wanna tell me?" He asked comfortingly.

"Well, I was going out with him. Then I found out he was placing a bet on my first kiss." I replied.

I hadn't tell this to anyone yet.

"Oh. Anything else?"

"Nothing."

"What about One Direction?"

For a split second, I was stunned.

"Oh... that. I just spent the night with them. That's all." I replied as if nothing was wrong.

"Really?" He asked, amused.

"You know... The other day when I said I was having a sleepover with a few girls...?"

"Were there even any girls?"

"Yes!" I replied hastily.

"Anyway, this guy came and asked if you were around. I said no and that you moved. He looked kinda upset."

"Who's that?" I asked clueless.

"He said he's from One Direction and he's also blonde..."

"Oh that's Niall." I replied.

Niall?

Why did Niall want me?

Did I leave something behind?

"What did he want?"

"He just wanted your virginity." He replied cooly.

Wait what?!

"What?" I was stunned for a couple of seconds.

"Ha! Gotcha! I was just kidding!" Ryan laughed as he pointed at me."You should have seen the look on your face!"

I regained my composure upon hearing what he said. My lips started to curl upwards and I laughed together with him.

"What did he say?"

"He said nothing. He didn't tell me what he wanted."

Soon after, he suggested watching a movie.

Just like that it felt perfect. It felt as if this was meant to be, just like the old times.

I miss this.