Shawn followed me back inside and went straight past me, right out the bedroom door. He slammed it shut with anger. He seriously couldn't get mad at me because I didn't want him to touch me. No person would think things would go back to normal after they drugged "the love of their life".
I could hear Shawn's laugh from the kitchen. I had no phone, clothes or anything that was personally mine. Did he just expect me to just walk around naked until he allowed me to go home? I dropped the sheet and slid the glass closet door open.
Inside, there were neat rows of untouched items. Shawn had a lot of different clothes I had never seen before. It's like he was living a second life away from me. Like in this house was secret, tie wearing Shawn and when he was with me, he was family man, t-shirt and jeans, let's have a baby, Shawn.
I oddly was more attracted to this mysterious version of Shawn.
Who could turn down a guy in a nice suit?
Oh wait... I just did.
I cleared my mind of this morning fight and picked out a neatly pressed white button up shirt. I didn't have many other choices. Either I was naked and stuck in this room or had to wear his clothes and be able to roam.
I rolled the sleeved up because what else was I supposed to do. I was already looking pretty cliché so might as well just complete the look. Sitting around the counter, along with Shawn was Zac, Nick, Andrew and Noah.
"Looks like the gangs all here." I joked as everyone turned to look at my bare legs.
"You should cover up more." Shawn growled.
"Or what?" I shot back, stepping into the kitchen.
He rolled his eyes and turned back to the table. I walked behind Zac, running my hand over his back. Nick's eyes got wide and Noah nearly choked on his toast.
"Maybe we should keep our hands to ourselves." Nick said, giving me a look.
Shawn looked up from his phone, very confused. I slinked over towards Shawn. I grabbed his hand and slipped the hair tie off of his wrist. I pushed his away again. Everyone was even more confused. I flipped my head over and pulled my hair up into a high ponytail.
I walked to Zac again, making sure to touch him even more.
"Seriously Mel. Hop off." Shawn demanded.
"I mean I could..." I turned sharply to face him. "... but why would I want to?"
"Melody!" Nick growled.
"What's your deal?" I shot back. "You all are so uptight."
I looked around the room. I was already bored with this place.
"So what are we doing today?" I asked, leaning against Zac.
"I have meetings all day. You're going to stay here until I get back." Shawn replied. "Zac is going to stay here to watch you."
I smirked. Perfect.
Noah nearly spat up his food. He couldn't hold in his laughter. Andrew's face was turning red and Nick was just angry.
"What the hell is so funny?"
"They didn't tell you?" I laughed.
"Mel don't." begged Zac.
"Don't what?" Harry asked. "Who said you could call her Mel?"
I slid onto Zac's lap.
"What the fuck is going on? Is this some sort of joke?"
Shawn threw his phone across the room and stood up.
"Calm down." Nick jumped up and held Shawn back. "You can't get mad at her for moving on. You two broke up so that meant you were free to see whomever."
"I didn't see anyone else!" Shawn yelled.
I laughed.
"Bullshit." I yelled back.
Shawn pushed past Nick and charged at Zac and I. He was furious.
So what? I hooked up with Zac a few times. Shawn and I had broken up. Zac was available and hot.
Zac pushed me behind and brace for Shawn's fist.
Shawn slowed down and dropped his hands.
"Aren't you going to hit me?" asked Zac.
"No." he replied calmly.
This was weird. Why wasn't he getting jealous? Why wasn't he yelling and breaking things? Why wasn't he fighting for me?
"Can I talk to you in private Melody?"
Oh god. Why did he want to have a private conversation? This wasn't like him at all.
He extended his hand. Zac stepped aside.
Was I really just going to go with him?
I grabbed his hand. He led me to the bedroom and softly shut the door behind us. He laughed to himself and rubbed his face.
"You and I are going out to dinner tonight. You're not going to fight it or bitch about anything." he started. "I don't know or care what happened between you and Zac but it's over. You and I from now on are going to work on us. Got it?"
I opened my mouth to reply but he put his finger to my lips.
"Got it?"
I nodded my head yes. He kissed the top of my head lightly and turned to leave.
"Wait." I cried after him.
He turned back to me.
"I'm sorry." I admitted, looking at the floor.
He half smiled at me and left the room.
Zac was a great guy, but he wasn't my guy. Right after the break up, I had moved in with Nat for a short while. Her friends were very crazy and party driven. I guess I had slowly slipped into that lifestyle. Zac had been at the same club one night. He had seen me take whatever Nat's friends had given me. I got really high and then really sick. He had helped me back to his place and made sure I didn't die in my sleep.
We didn't hook up. He just laid by me for two days straight. I guess I had hooked up with some strangers but Zac had told me that it would be easier for Shawn to accept if it was with him. Zac was right, Shawn had taken it way better than either of us could imagined.
You could say that Zac is the reason I was still alive.
A lot had happened last summer. I'm sure Shawn had done some stuff he wasn't too proud of.
I crawled back into bed and covered myself so that nobody could hear me crying. The front door opened and shut. I heard a few car engines start and pull away. I jumped up and ran into the now empty kitchen. I was left completely alone.
Shawn had left a phone with a note of numbers. I was only to call if I was in danger. The sky had grown darker. A storm was rolling in.
A few hours of pacing went by. The house got darker and colder. I turned on the fireplace and sat next to it for warmth. I was too sad and scared to watch tv or even try to do anything else. Around 4pm, the clouds gave way and tiny droplets started to hit the windows.
I lifted the cover off of the piano keys. I lightly tapped the keys. Before I knew it, I was sitting down, playing and writing music.
I started playing. I started to review everything. How Shawn and I first met, right up to pregnancy. Our divorce and how we found each other in every difficult situation. We were different but somehow the same. I never stopped loving him and he never stopped loving me either. Shawn is the best thing that could ever happen to me and it took too long for me to realize it.
I started to grin.
We belong together and I will give everything to make it the same as it was then.
I love him.
And after all this time I can finally say am incredibly happy.
