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"Dylan, we need to talk" I said. 

"Dylan," I paused "we need to talk."

"Dylan."

"Yes Jen?" A voice from behind me said.

I jumped back in surprise "Dylan!" I exclaimed.

I turned around to see Bryan. "Oh, it's you" I said.

"Were you expecting someone?" Bryan said teasingly, I rolled my eyes at him. 

"What do you want?" I asked, arms crossed. 

"Nothing, just wondered why you kept repeating your boyfriend's name over and over again" He grinned. 

"He's not...we're...it's complicated" I huffed. 

I felt like I'd been saying that line way more than I should have been. 

"Whatever you say" Bryan shrugged. 

I definitely wanted to punch this guy. 

"Listen, you know you can tell me what's on your mind right? I can be a great listener." He told me.

"Thanks..." I said, touched by his sincerity.

He looked at me expectantly.
"Oh you mean now..." I said.

He shrugged. I sighed in defeat and told him everything. I told him how Dylan and I kept a very blurred line between being friends and something more, and how it was all kinds of confusing. I admitted that more often than not I would wonder what he wanted to happen between the both of us,  were we going to be together forever or were we just going to hit a dead end?

"Why are we so afraid of putting a label?" I groaned in frustration.
Bryan looked like he was about to say something, but hesitated. "Out with it, I need your wisdom oh wise one." I joked halfheartedly.

"It's just...for me if you want to be with someone there shouldn't be any hindrances, or any hesitation.  It should be as easy as breathing life itself and from what you're telling me it seems like neither you or Dylan wants to commit." Bryan said.

"That's preposterous! I've liked Dylan for so long..."
"Have you? Or do you just like the idea of him?" He shot back at me.

I fell silent, and turned away from Bryan. "Look, all that I'm saying is, if I found someone that I really liked I wouldn't be waiting around walking on eggshells waiting for either one of us to make the first move. I'd let that person know what my intentions are, and if I get rejected then so be it." He said.

"I guess you might have a point." I admitted. We sat in silence.
"It's just..." I hesitated. "Yes?" Bryan said, urging me to continue what I was about to say. "It's just that there was so much history between us, there IS a lot of history between us. I guess for the longest time I had it in my head that we would eventually cross the line and become something more."I said "at one point I think I convinced myself that it was fate, destiny, or whatever that we ended up in the same school for college but who was I even kidding? It wasn't fate or destiny, we literally just went to the college version of our highschool! I was kidding myself when I thought that I wouldn't run into anyone from my past here...it's as if I wanted to-" I stopped short, the sudden realization hitting me with full force. "Jennifer are you okay?" Bryan asked, sounding concerned.

My eyes brimmed with tears, and as much as I tried I couldn't stop them from falling. "I was so stuck in the past that I chased it...that I knowingly looked for it..." I sobbed. Bryan put his arms around me as I continued to cry. I
I felt so broken, can somebody fix me?

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