One minute I’m fine and everything seems great
Then I get scared and I cant even think straight
These people compliment me and say I’m attractive
Then they get to know me and those statements are retracted
I fall to depressive disorders and I’m prone to anxiety
They don’t seem to understand all these feelings inside of me
I’m not even sure that I know what’s going on in my brain
I just know that I’m being concealed by this numbing pain
I’ll overthink and reminisce about people I’ll never get back
Then I’ll sit in my car and have another panic attack
They keep me around and use me until I fulfill my purpose
Then I’ll break down and question why I would deserve this
I’ll continue to beat myself up and ask why no one ever stays
Then I’ll come to the conclusion that I’m the only one to blame
The thought of being alone leaves me suicidal and stressed
Like nothing will ever fill the space of this hole in my chest
I say I want to end it all and I hear “he’d never do that"
But I’m hanging on by a thread and it’s ready to snap
The thought of a future has me riddled with doubt
But I’m in a dark place and I don’t see another way out…
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In My Thoughts
PoesiaThis is a collection of poems that I use to express the waves of emotions inside of my head.
