How My World Changed Forever...Again

what even?

Author's Note

I'll preface this by saying sorry for being the absolute worst at updating and blah, blah, blah. I'm going to *try* to get motivated again.

Now on to the good stuff. If you haven't seen Josh's new video, go watch it no matter how painful it is.

I posted a message about this but I really want to say a lot more. It will be all over the place.

I understand that people should not be telling him to kill himself and stuff. Those people are in the wrong there, but for pretty much everything else, he brought his problems upon himself.

I knew this would happen someday. In fact, I have a chapter of this book that I wrote months ago where it does happen. It'll come in the future.

Basically, Josh called out Colleen but never said what she did and called all of the people, probably mainly kids, watching pieces of shit. He assumes everyone who follows Colleen is a complete dick, and flat out stated that Colleen didn't "protect" him while he protected her. In my opinion, all Colleen did online post divorce was protect him. She never once even uttered his name. Now, I don't know what she did behind closed doors and I don't think any of us ever will for sure, despite Josh's exposing. When all Josh was doing was tearing her down, she even did as much as build him and her time spent with him up. I'm talking about the livestream when she talked about soul mates. And when she wasn't indirectly building him up, she was completely silent. She protected his online reputation with everything she had.

In his video from today, he talks about his broken friendship with Matt and Rebecca. What I find ironic is post divorce, Colleen and Rebecca were *never* together. In fact, I would go as far to say that Matt and Rebecca backed Josh. This goes back to the JoJo situation; after the divorce, Colleen was separated from JoJo for several months, I'm assuming because JoJo was still friends with Rebecca. I will always wonder what went down between those two that put Colleen and JoJo back together. Since it's quite obvious that Rebecca and Matt did not cut ties with Josh at fault of Colleen, I'm curios to hear what Josh says about it. He listed all these people who don't talk to him anymore and will be mad at him for "telling the truth" and none of the situations really seem connected. It makes me think that the problem with keeping YouTuber friendships is more of a Josh thing than an anyone else thing.

I'm also curious what Josh will say about Colleen. Adultery is not a crime in the state of California, and it probably happens a lot. He's not the first one in LA to be cheated on, if she was unfaithful, which I chose not to believe. In fact, through all of this, he could probably be the one who gets in trouble. Deformation of character is a real thing, and I'm not a lawyer, but as far as I'm concerned, if any one of these people he is supposedly going to expose in his Shane Dawson-esque series is proven innocent, he could be in trouble. Now, that's the American legal system with no strings attached, so it wouldn't happen like that. However, how is he going to prove things like affair or emotional abuse? Then again, to be guilty of deformation of character, Colleen would have to prove she wasn't emotionally abusive or whatever in order to prove Josh guilty since it's innocent until proven otherwise. That would also be difficult on her side.

That's all just theory; I don't think any of it would actually happen. I do not doubt that he will fabricate lies and stories about Colleen, but she is going on Broadway; she does not have time for a huge legal undertaking. However, I wouldn't put it past Rebecca to get really pissed and take some sort of action no matter how small it may be. As far as I'm concerned she has all the time in the world. Trisha will react but quite frankly, I don't think she's smart enough to take legal action.

Basically, this video could cause a storm. Colleen and Josh have maybe the biggest under-rated divorce on YouTube, and the only reason it's under-rated is that Josh fell of the face of the earth after it so people kinda stopped talking about them. I am sure she will stay classy and keep her mouth shut like she has for the past 8 hours, but people will be talking about it if Josh gets enough views.

It was idiotic and immature for him to decide to do this when he sure as hell knows she's starting Broadway in just a couple of weeks. Whenever she has any ounce of success, this is what he does to a lesser degree usually, but this time is the snap we've all been waiting for. Did I make up the fact that the day Haters Back Off got canceled Josh liked a tweet or retweeted "karma's a bitch"? I swear to god I remember that but who knows lol.

Colleen can take it. She's taken his shit for the past three years. Erik can take it, and I wouldn't put it past Josh to say some really terrible things about him, even though Erik did not sign up to have his personal life blasted on the internet. The entire Ballinger family can take Josh's antics. The one I'm really worried about is Flynn. He's absolutely defenseless and happened to be born after a pretty ugly divorce. We have no idea how long the things Josh says about Colleen will live on. It would break my heart in two if the parents of someone Flynn goes to school with followed this drama and somehow gives Flynn crap for it ten years down the road.

Four other defenseless humans are Bailey, Jacob, Parker, and Duncan. I bet those kids don't even remember his name, Duncan never having known it in the first place, and I would hope that Josh isn't rotten enough of a human being to bring them into this, but I know he knows those kids mean the world to Colleen. She will flip shit if she finds out he does as much as say one of their names.

Another thing, and sorry this is all over the place, he didn't say anything about Erin. Granted, it was a "people I hate" video, and I don't think he hates her, but I do know she is pregnant, and so is Jessica. Erin is married to Adam. Jessica is married to Christopher. Christopher and Adam are cousins. Their babies will be less than a month apart, and I hope with everything in me that those two families have reconnected and Josh is pissed about it.

It's also pretty clear now that Josh's parents are divorced which sucks. I can't help but thinking it's a little ironic that he was all mad that his relationship with Colleen was never what his parents had (a misogynistic, 1970s, traditional southern marriage????) and now that version of perfection is gone.

When Josh and Colleen were together, they really did have it all, and he cannot recognize that. They were real, and he needs to remember that. If she did not love him, she would've left him sooner. He did not give her financial stability, a job, a roof over her head, or food on her table, but it was rather the other way around. My point is, he needed her a lot more than she needed him.

How is Pamela still with Josh? All he seems to do is obsess over his ex wife, and that cannot under any circumstances be healthy for a new marriage.

Personally, I am not even sure he will ever release the other parts to this series. But if he does, we need to love on Colleen like never before. She needs us. She's rehearsing for Broadway right now and that's all that anyone needs to be talking about.

Had it been Colleen who released a video about this, she would've gotten backlash as if she were James Charles, but all Josh seems to be getting is love...on YouTube at least...Twitter is another story. Colleen can't even defend herself because somehow she'd end up in the wrong.

People need to remember that Colleen is innocent until proven guilty because that is how America is supposed to work.

Sorry this was so long, I could rant about Josh's childish behavior for ages.

To end on a lighter note...

Colleen: rehearsing for a Broadway freaking Musical in New York City with her husband and son living her best life.

Nobody:

Absolutely no one:

Not a single soul:

Josh: nOw tHIs iS wHat ReAllY haPPeNed

Please let me know what you think of everything, and if you got to the end, thanks for sticking with me 💜