patience

Chapter Twelve

"I love you too" I say. Tears formed in my eyes. I loved him from the moment that I first saw him. I didn't know it then, but I did.

"Can we make this official?" He asks. His forhead was resting against mine. I couldn't even speak. All I could do was nod. "Yeah?".

"Yeah" I say. He kisses me again.

"This is still just us, okay. I want you all to myself" He says.

"You're the only one who has me" I say. The corners of his lips turn up into the smile I love so much.

"We... We're going to have to tell Alessia" I say. "I-I can't keep this secret from her".

"If that's what you want, then that's what we need to do" He says. We had began walking to the buses.

"She needs to know. I just don't know how to tell her" I say.

"Let's give it some time then. You and me for now" He says as we reach his bus. I nod.

"I need to get going. She's gonna send a search party" I say. He smiles.

"I really want to kiss you, but I don't want to risk it" He says.

"I understand" I say.

"Why don't you see if Alessia is awake and if she's not, ride with me. We're just going to Newark, it isn't too far" He says.

I went to see if Alessia was awake, she was.

"What's up?" She asks.

"I-I...Uh, Shawn asked if I would ride with him tonight. It's just a few hours. He said he wanted to show me something" I lie. She didn't seem fazed at all.

"Okay, that's cool. Be careful, though. Don't do anything I wouldn't" She says. I roll my eyes as I walk off the bus knowing she was just as innocent as me.

I walked into Shawn's bus and found him in the lounge.

"She was sleeping?" He asks.

"No, I just told her that you wanted to show me something" I say. He smiled.

"Well, at least you didn't have to fully lie to her" He says. I smile and sit next to him. He pulls me into his chest.

"True. I hate doing lying, but for some reason it feels okay in this situation" I say.

"Babe, you're not really lying" He says. That was the first time he had called me that. "You just aren't telling her something".

"Yeah, I guess that's true" I say.

"We're going to tell her one day" He says. I nod my head. I was so tired to actually speak, and being with Shawn right here like this was the perfect way to end the day.

He put his head on top of mine and played soft music. I had almost forgotten about being mad at him the other day. How could I stay mad at him? I won't lie and say that I wasn't curious about what it was, but it was in the past, so I tried to not let it bother me very much.

Shawn thought I was asleep when I wasn't, he kissed the top of my head and whispered "I love you" before turning the lights off. I didn't have to have any sweet dreams tonight, I was already living the sweetest one.