Alessia still didn't know that Shawn and I were together, or were together, or are on a break. Might as well callus Ross and Rachel, but I don't know why I haven't told her. I had the perfect opportunity too last night. I was stupid for not telling her, but could things even get worse than they were right now? I didn't see how.
I woke up and found Alessia still asleep. After last night, I think she needed it. I walked down to the hotel cafeteria. All I wanted was coffee, but that came with a face full of Shawn.
"Can we talk?" He asks. I wanted to say no, but I knew it was only fair that I talked to him too.
"Fine" I say. He leads me outside into the pool area.
"I don't know what Alessia told you, but I know she probably didn't lie, so let's talk about this and get it settled" He says. I sigh.
"She told me that you used her for sex. She said that you told her you loved her and had sex, then that's all that it was. No love, just sex" I say. He bit his lip.
"I know how Alessia felt. That's why I ended things with her. She believed a lie and shes way too innocent to be destroyed by this cruel world" He says.
"Well, she's not anymore! You were her cruel world, Shawn. You destroyed her!" I say.
"You're one to talk! What are you doing to her right now? You're lying to her! You're fucking lying to her, River, but you're only blaming me. You haven't yet, but you're going to destroy her too" He says.
"How dare you" I say.
"No, River. How dare you!" He says. I sigh. "I-I don't want to fight, River. But you're not being fair. Yes, Alessia and I have had our thing in the past, but that's the past. She and I are actually great friends and have moved on. What you and I are doing right now is a problem. You know, you're yelling at me for lying to her about being in love with her. I mean, I loved her, but not like that. We're lying about being in love to her". I hated myself for saying this but he was right.
"I just want to be there for her and say and do the right things" I say.
"How do you expect you and I to do and say the right thing when we've been doing and saying the wrong things for the past month?" He asks.
"I don't know" I say.
"Look, River, I know you're mad at me, but you really can't be" He says.
"I know that. I know that I can't say she doesn't deserve this because that makes me sound like the biggest bitch in the world. I know that I can't be mad at her for lying to me because I lie to her face every day. I can't be mad at you because...I love you" I say.
"Riv, I love you" He says.
"Shawn, I think it's time for me to do the right thing" I say. He raised his eyebrow.
"What do you mean?" He asks.
"I'm breaking up with you" I say. Tears welled in my eyes and in his.
"No" He says with a soft voice.
"Goodbye, Shawn".
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FanfictionRiver Cane was a canadian native with a normal life. she worked at the local mall and lived her life. the one thing that wasn't normal about her life was her family. her cousin was pop star, Alessia Cara, and not only were they cousins, but best fr...
