Late Night Thoughts

Distant Memory

It has been fifty-eight days since I last talked to you. And in those last fifty-eight days, I have spent every single one of them wishing you're still here. I don't care what anyone says, you gave me the best two months of my life. You gave me the love no one had ever shown me. It was different for me but I enjoyed it, knowing that you were always going to be there for me and be willing to listen about how my day went and what I did. In those two months, you gave me memories that will last a lifetime. I will never forget those long nights of us on FaceTime together or how you would casually look up from your homework and smile at me. It was those little moments that I never thought I would miss. You made it worth getting through the day, talking to me and keeping a smile on my face. I was ready to sacrifice everything so I could truly be with you. My entire life, I was neglected and treated like an outsider. I never felt like someone loved me or cared about me. But as soon as I messaged you on Christmas, that changed. I finally experienced what it was like to be loved by someone and have them want to help you through everything. I was in my first relationship and it was with you. I learned what it was like to be in love with someone. I was finally felt true happiness from life, like everything was truly going to be okay. You may gone forever, but the memories I have of you will never leave me.