Late Night Thoughts

Trust

We open up to the people we trust. To the people we want to show ourselves to. What happens when we do it too soon? This person can take everything we have, know our intentions, and our desires and without knowing it, will find a way to make us feel hurt. We gave ourselves to somebody and opened up to them, something we are all scared to do because we don't want to get hurt. And even though this person knows that you mean well, and what makes you happy, they still hurt you. Maybe not on purpose, but they can and they do. I've never opened up to somebody the way I have with you. I've never given myself to someone like I have with you. I have never put my happiness in someone like I have with you. You know what I what and what makes me happy. You know what upsets me and destroys me. Sometimes I feel like you want to do both. I have given you all of me, and I don't want to regret it. But you know I want to see you happy, more than anything else. I'm not good enough for you. I can't be there for you to make you happy. I can't help you the way I need to be able to. I will never leave you and I will always love you, but what happens to me when you no longer feel this way? You move on eventually, finding someone capable of doing what I can not. I sit here and drown in my tears. You have a smile on your face I couldn't provide. I gain scars and heartache. I will never regret opening up to you, I will only regret hurting you enough to make you walk away. In my opinion this could be said from either of our perspectives. You and I have both opened ourselves up more then enough to be easily hurt. We both want the other to be happy and hate when we upset each other. We don't want to see each other walk away ever. So why do you and I keep doing this? Why do we keep having stupid little arguments when we know what it does to each other. I really don't know about you, but I just want you to be happy and to be the reason you smile. Not the reason you're hurt.