The Age Of Aquarius: Awakening My Emotions Through Poetry

Chronic Pain

I ain't been doing it that long

Back then I used to think that it was wrong

You shouldn't drink it said my mom

But she ain't on it like I'm on

I don't just do this shit for fun

Shit

I mean it ain't like I get this shit for free

Yet the one thing you don't see

Behind the green of the trees

And the crystals in the leaves

Is that it gives me no relief

It restricts the way I breathe

It locks my jaw up with a key

But at the same time it's something I need

It got me feeling green with greed

I grew on me like the earth grows weeds

I breathe in her fine grains

Each breathe a blow to the brain

Each hit I say I'll quit again but again I never quit cus to be honest I like the hits

I feel my spirits lift

I feel my tensions start to drift

Like drift from a fire

It fills my lungs with desire

From my lips and through the wire

Spit like Kanye through the wire

But I ain't like Kanye my jaw was never wired

Though they say the need has always been dire

I'm not a liar

Just ask my supplier

They say my joints inflamed in fire

So I keep my joint inflamed in fire

I often wonder who's the bigger liar

My pain or my gain?

Fuck it's leaning to the right again

Fuck it hurts it don't feel right again

I'm high again

I survived again

I'll try again

I'll block the pain

I swear it blocks the pain

I swear it's not in vain

I want to make a change

Why should I stay the same?

But damn it's hard to change

Fuck it I'll quitanother day