The Age Of Aquarius: Awakening My Emotions Through Poetry

It Was a Good Day

I feel like I'm stuck

I feel like I can't get out of this rut

I feel like no matter how hard I try to satisfy my life I just can't seem to give a fuck

Honestly that's just my luck

Nothings ever been handed to me

Nothings ever been received for free

Nah it's just fee after fucking fee

Devil on my back to collect his meal

When did I ever make this deal?

When did I ever let go of the wheel?

Cus I swear I know my life's amazing

I swear I know that it's numbered in days and

I swear I know ma and ba worked like slaves in order to save my damn soul

Someone please tell me why I'm stuck in this hole?

I keep telling myself to remember it's only temporary

I never needed no one then so why now that I'm alone does it feel so scary?

Why does it feel like I'm six feet under and buried?

Up at night jaw clenched I'm tense

I let my guard down and my defense

My hearts an open wound, my body drags dense

I wanna rebuild these walls and secure them with a fence

I mean at least back then I didn't feel anything

I now feel hell cus I know I've felt heaven

I once knew God so I know I had a blessing

And although it wasn't always perfection there's nothing I'm regretting because I found my existence there

I could breathe there

I could move freely and happily there

I put that on my life I found a family there

I never thought I'd be able to say I had friends

That was always a word I just couldn't comprehend

It was always like I was just playing pretend

So I said fuck it

Fuck this bullshit town

Fuck these bullshit people

I'll start over somewhere else I don't need this shithole

I never thought I'd have to come back to this shithole

And I never thought I'd have to start over in this shithole

I know this is just temporary

And I know that I'm ahead of the game

Coming back to this place is a reminder that we are not the same

I don't belong here these fuckers can't even pronounce my name

I know that it's not forever

I just gotta take it day by day

I know that it's not forever

I just gotta remind myself that today was a good day