These plastic dreams
Of TV screens, and radiosPretending everything is what it seemsThese plastic dreamsAre all I knowWould someone wake me up from all these plastic dreams
Lisa POV
I have been binge eating like crazy. It is already been a month. He already must be released from his addiction program. He has not contacted me yet. I am so stressed out that even my period didn't came. Tonight is the Youtube awards. I have eaten so much the last few weeks that i don't fit in the dress anymore. Sighs. After i made an appearance on the red carpet, i get bombarded by questions about... you know who. I feel so down by this world. I know they have to make a living like that but this is someone's private life! I make my way to the after party and everybody looks at me. Wow! talk about not being noticed i hear Karen whisper to me. As she and i also go to the dance floor, this song comes on and instantly i miss him. What is he going through? What is he up to? Has he already forgotten me?
Throwback to G-Eazy journey from a drunk to sober
Week 1: As i made my way to this place, i have never felt so alone. The last time i felts so alone was when mom left us. I feel nervous. I already want to walk away and get myself a shot. A shot of whiskey. This week went by so fast. It was hell. It is still hell. I don't feel great at all. Most important thing i don't even want to stay here. I need a drink. I feel like by coming here it has made my craving worse. It feels like i am seeing her. My Lisa. My beautiful pissed off Lisa. I am still here only because of her...because of us
Week 2: This is not getting better. The craving has stopped thank god, but i want to get out of here. This week they have been really going at it or should i say me. They only want me to talk. It hurts to talk about everything. About mom, dad, Lisa and why i am like this. Fuck.
Week 3: This week has gone by so fast. I not only feel great but i am having clean thoughts aswell. I want to go away today. I still have 3 days before this week ends. But they are not sending me away. I miss her. I can't wait to get out next week.
Week 4: This week is making me feel so many things...good things. I can't wait to see her. That is all i want. See her. I am getting out today. Matt is picking me up today. I hope she forgives me. I am scared to see her. More than excited. What if she doesn't wants to see me? What will i do then?
Authors note~ hey guys how did you find the chapters till now? Let me know. I am open to feedback :) I uploaded 5 chapters today and tomorrow i will also upload 5 chapters. Tomorrow's chapter is going to be a interesting one...it includes David Dobrik hihihi
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