Rainy Days [Poetry]

Fall

the edge is tempting
maybe i could fall off it
like a bird, without the flying
if only i could start trying

but feelings warn me
they will not let me be
they scream until i cannot see
and i think i'm losing sanity

it's too bad i fear falling
because it'd be an easy way
of ending this catastrophe
this absolute trainwreck

i call life. my friends joke
about jumping off buildings
and it makes me sick
it reminds me that i'm truly weak

so i look out at the sky wistfully
i remind myself that i have a life
that's waiting ahead for me
that i don't need to run to survive

and as long as i stay another day
i'll be fine. i may not be special
but i'll try to bring joy anyway
maybe one day i'll have some say

for if i'm being frank
i don't have much to live for
but if i stick on and survive
perhaps i can truly soar

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thank you for all the lovely comments! i'll try to reply them as soon as possible, i promise :'(
anyway, sorry if my writing seems self-centered? i'll try to have more variety in my writing ahH —

have a wonderful day or night ahead! 💕